My First And Last Love

Chapter 24: Please

Xian's POV:

I just came back inside our house after talking to Iris. I can't leave her, i won't leave her. She's my everything, she's the source of my happiness, she's the reason why i still smile and she's the reason there's still a burning fire lit in my heart

I can't stand looking at her while tears fall down her face. My heart can't bare it knowing she's broken because of me. She's my happiness, why would i make her sad?

While i was walking towards my room, my mind was occupied with a lot of things, questions that me, myself cannot answer like what would i do if i can't stop the arrangement? Or what would i do if i really need to leave Iris? And even would i be happy if she's not with me?

My mind was filled with a lot of unexplainable situations that might happen to us in the future and i'm starting to think that my parents didn't really love me because they made this decision for me by themselves

While i was sat in my bed, hugging a stuffed monkey Iris gave to me during our third date...

Flashback

We we're walking down the mall hand in hand. Today was one of the best days that happened in my life because i get to be with the the girl i love. While walking down, we spotted a shop that was filed with lots of stuffed animal and we decided to go in

"Hey babe, i want this elephant. Can you buy it for me?" My princess asked me showing her signature smile with those sparkly eyes that i can't resist

"Sure anything for you princess but, what would you give me for our third date?" I asked her brushing my thumb across her soft hand

She looked around the shop as if she's searching for the most precious hidden treasure in the world then her eyes lit up

"Hehe, i'll buy you that monkey" she showed me her cute smile and gave me a side hug. I really love it whenever she acted like this, she looks like the most precious thing in my eyes

"Thanks babe. Anything that you give me, i will treasure forever but why a monkey though?.." i asked her then she giggled

"Because, your my cheeky monkey"

"Hey..i'm not cheeky" i pouted

"Nice try, but you look ugly when you pout and besides you are cheeky so stop lying to yourself" she hit my arm playfully so i acted like i was hurt

"Come on, let's pay for it already" she smiled like a kid getting her favorite candy

I love her so damn much..

End of flashbacks

It has a faint scent of her because she gave me a spare of the perfume she always wear

Whenever i feel sad and miss her, i always hug this monkey and it will remind me all the good memories we've made the past 11 months

I really hope that the arrange wedding would be postponed

As i kept hugging the monkey, someone knocked on my door. Knowing by the situation, it would probably be my mom

"Come in" i blandly answered. She opened the door softly and sat down at the chair beside my bed

"Dear, please listen to me. I know you're still upset because me and your father arranged you with someone and i'm sorry because of that. I know how much you love Iris. I can see it in your eyes and i support you with her" she told me and i can feel the sincerity through her words the moment i looked her in the eyes