Cenk And Cemre angst. *Turkish drama couple*

The light

I'm at the edge of the roof. It's a long way down but maybe this is my happy ending. maybe this is what I deserved from the start.

Voices are calling me. 

Cemre and Nedim are standing behind me. 

"Cenk come back." Cemre is holding her hand out with tears streaming down her cheeks.

"Abi." Nedim is also holding out his hand to me.

And for the first time I feel loved. For the first  time I know I'll be okay.

Nedim POV 

We're all waiting for any news on Cenk's condition. He has been in the operating room for hours now.  As I'm waiting, uncle sits next to me. A sigh leaves him, "I always thought the worst of Cenk," he confides. "Even after his suicide attempt, I thought he was a hopeless case. He was my son and yet..." I hold him by the shoulders maybe it will comfort him. "And yet I didn't try to understand him. He must've been so scared of losing my love after what Seniz told him. I remember how he came to me and told me that I was right to hate him. That he was sorry...I should've told him that a son doesn't apologize to his father. That I'll always forgive him no matter what. Because I'm his father. And I'll always be his father regardless of  what a DNA test says." He stops to catch his breath and continues, "He'll always be my son. I should've..."

"You can say that to him later." I reply. And with that I give him the hope that things will get better. No matter how hard it may seem

Cemre POV

I'm in front of Seniz's room. I go in and I find her on the bed with hands in her hair. I can't help but feel a little sorry for her. Cenk was the only person she had on her side and now he's  fighting for his life.

"You're the only one responsible for everything," But I have to make her admit her wrongs, "You're the one who made Cenk feel like he was nothing. Who destroyed Nedim's life. So don't   cry now. The only thing you can do is go to prison to pay for what you've done." 

"My son, my son, my son..mysonmysonmyson...the gun, he said we should leave together" She looks at me,"And then his blood, he was in my arms bleeding and I...I'm the one. I' m the one who hurt him. I'M THE ONE WHO HURT HIM! CENK! CENK!"

The nurse comes in and calms her down. And I leave the room knowing that Seniz may not recover from the shock of shooting her son. 

Cenk POV 

I open my eyes and I find myself blinded by lights above me. So I try to lift my arm. But my chest hurts so bad. I look around the room only to find Cemre sleeping on the chair next to my bed. Is this a dream?  I want to make sure that she's real but I don't want to wake her up. God, she looks so beautiful.  She opens her eyes and I hope that this is real. She starts crying. And her shaky hands touch my cheeks so softly. I lean into her touch. Hoping for this to last.

-"I was so worried that I won't get to do this again." She says smiling through the tears.

-"Is this real? Because I don't want to wake up if it's a dream."

She brings her face close to mine and she kisses me on the forehead. She must've been an angel in another life.

-"This is real. And I won't let you go anywhere without me again. I'm going to tell everyone that you woke up. They're all worried about you."

Nedim POV 

Cemre has the biggest smile on her face...Cenk must be awake. "Cenk just opened his eyes." She squeals and I don't expect the hug that comes my way and the quiet words she says next: "This time: It really is the end. But it's also the start. Happiness, family and peace are all waiting for you. Don't let them go." Oh, how I always wanted a family. I won't let it go. I have my chance at something beautiful. I won't let the ugliness of revenge conquer the beauty of love.

I tell Cemre that she should go back to Cenk's side. She says she has a few things to do first and she'll be back to stay the night. "You should go to talk to your brother. I'll be back later." She gives me a wink and walks away.

I imagined this moment so many times but now that it's here. I come up empty for words. Just a feeling of bliss overtakes me but also fear. I've never talked to Cenk without the harsh words, the fights and the misunderstandings. With my heart on my sleeve, I go in. And I hope for the best.

Cenk POV

I hear the door opening. "Cemre?" I ask. But no answer. I try to sit up right to see who it is. "ahh, that hurts." I wince in pain. My chest feels like it has been hit by a truck. Well, it did get hit by a bullet if you think about it.

"Let me help you." And I can't believe what I'm hearing . Because it's Nedim's voice. My brother's voice. He helps me get into a comfortable position and then he sits next to me. I look at him and I'm scared of what he's about to say. No, I'm terrified.

He's probably here to say that he doesn't want anything to do with me and I want to get it over with fast so I tell him: "It's okay if you don't want a relationship with me. Don't feel guilty," I look at him, hoping he knows I understand why, "It must've been one of the worst things you went through and that's..."

He cuts me off and says: "No." but I don't understand. "What do you mean by no? I really don't get what you're saying."

"No, it wasn't the worst thing I went through. The hardest thing was knowing you are my brother and.." Here it comes, the rejection I've been dreading. "and that I might lose you. Without getting to know you. Abi."

He said it. 

Abi. 

A tear falls then another, They keep falling until I'm weeping my heart out. I don't know if I'm crying because of the little boy who grew up not loving himself or for his brother spending 20 years on a chair, maybe because of all the years I wasted not loving Nedim or because for the first time in my life I hope for happiness.

Nedim holds me in his arms and I feel his tears falling on my shirt. Then he starts laughing out of nowhere and says: "God, we're so dramatic sometimes. Look at us, we're a mess!" and I can't help but join him. "No wonder, we're brothers."

After he calms down a little, he looks at me and holds his hand out, "From now on, we're a team. From now on we protect each other. From now on we are brothers."

I take his hand, "From now on I won't let anyone hurt you."

He stands up and tells me that he's leaving, so that my dad and I can talk a little. My hands start shaking . Dad knows everything now. If I lose him...Nedim puts his hand on my head. I look up to his face and he has the brightest smile I've seen in a long time. "Don't worry too much okay." I couldn't talk so I just nodded. And with those words, he left.

After a few minutes the door opens again and my dad is there looking at me.