Cenk And Cemre angst. *Turkish drama couple*

Give you my heart

Cemre POV

We get to see Cenk today.  God, how I hate hospitals now. Seniz is still out of it, so she's the only one missing. The nurse comes our way. And she asks who wants to go first. Everyone looks at me. And I tell her that I'm his wife.

I go in scared of what I'll see but I know it will be okay.

 I move through the ICU door as if I'm in a dream. The only thing I hear is the beeping sound of the heart monitor. I get closer to Cenk's bed. He looks so pale and fragile surrounded by all these machines. I sit softly on the bed. And I take his hand, give it a kiss. Keep it in mine. Where I always wanted it to be.

"Hey," I try to sound lighthearted but a tear slips and I can't keep my voice steady, "You weren't supposed to be here. We were going on a date and I was going to say..." The tears are making everything seem blurry so I try to calm down. "You said I used you just because I was scared and angry. And you were right.  At first, I wanted you to hide me from my heart. But now...now I want you to keep it. You're not the bad guy. You're just a little scared too. And this time, I'll hide your heart and protect it." 

Nedim POV

Cemre comes out of the ICU crying. And I realize that she's not for me anymore. She fell in love with the person who stayed by her side. I remember how hurt she was when I didn't choose her. And wanted revenge instead. The moment Cenk slipped that ring on her finger. I knew deep down that whatever we had was gone. But I'm thankful she came into my life. I'm thankful she came into Cenk's life. I will always keep her as a bright memory.

I go into the hospital room, and I see Cenk looking so at peace. I wonder if he ever felt peace before. All the times he couldn't look me in the eyes. All the times he hurt himself. And the last moment when he apologized to me. 

I sit on the chair next to his bed. And I try to find the right words. I've never talked to him so casually before. It was always a fight between us. But all I could think is that dream of when we were eight and he was crying. "I'm sorry," my hands are shaking so hard, "for not protecting you...Abi." He didn't think I would ever call him that. "I'm so glad you are my brother. I know that we both hurt each other. But we can heal each other now. We can have a new start."

Cenk POV

I'm eight years old again and I'm crying. You'll never be loved. You're a monster. Is the spell I can't break. It's a prison and I don't know how to get out. Someone sits down next to me. It's Nedim. He gives me a hug. He apologizes. He promises he'll protect me. He says I'll be loved. And I want to believe him but I'm scared...I'm scared. 

Nedim POV 

The heart monitor starts beating so fast. I run to call the doctors. They surround Cenk. Abi.

"His heart rate is going down, oxygen level is too low. We need to take him to operation as fast as possible." 

Please be okay. I want to get to know you. I want to do so many things with my big brother. Cenk, you can't leave now!