Cenk And Cemre angst. *Turkish drama couple*

My Son

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Cenk POV

I'm looking at eight-year-old me and I can't help but feel sorry. He puts his small hand in mine. Looks at me and asks, "am I monster?" But I couldn't answer him, I didn't know what to tell him even after all these years. So I just shake my head because he's just a kid. And kids can't be monsters.  

"Aren't you scared of the dark?" He wonders.  

"No, I'm used to it. So you shouldn't be scared either." and I pick him up in my arms.

"Aren't you tired then? You've been here alone for so long."

"I'm really tired kiddo, but I'm not alone" He looks at me with surprised wide eyes and I say, "You're here with me now. maybe we both need some rest."

Cemre POV

I go back with Nedim to where everyone is. I feel tired and hollow. But I try to keep it together because Nedim looks worse than I do. It must've been a shock to know that Cenk is his brother.

Agah looks at Nedim and I realize that he also just learned the truth about Cenk. I don't know what will happen. But that's not important now, because Cenk needs to survive first. The Doctor gets out of the operation room  and everyone rushes to him. 

He looks around. Lowers his head, looks up again and then he speaks, "I'm sorry. We did everything we could but the blood loss was too great and the bullet was really close to his heart", he clears his throat and continues, "Cenk bey fell into a coma. We're not sure of when he'll wake up but we're hoping for the best. We'll keep him under intense care for now. No one will be able to see him today. I think everyone should go home and get some rest, my apologies."

I must be in a nightmare. No, this can't be real. Cenk was always right there next to me. And now I can't see him?

 A loud cry echoes behind me and I watch as Seniz starts shaking her head back and forth repeating incoherent words. She deserves it. But she's still Cenk's mother so I try to help her up. 

"My son, my son, my son...He said I should stop. He said we'll leave together and forget about everything." She holds my arm in a death grip, " And we already have enough money so it'll be okay. He said he'll stay with me. But I kept saying no, no,no, nonononon...He's the only one who loved me. Even after, he tried to kill himself, I didn't give up. I used him again and again. And he didn't say anything. He said we'll start over. start over and have a new life but nononono..." Her shoulders started shaking and she kept repeating 'my son' like it was going to bring Cenk back. Like it was a spell and he'll be okay. I wish that was true.

Nedim POV

They gave Seniz a Tranquilizer and now she's sleeping in the hospital. I wish they killed her instead. I want to pay back all the pain she made me feel. For all the lies and the hurt. For all the times she told my brother that he was a monster and he couldn't be loved. 

Cenk, My brother, my brother. 

He has to get better. I couldn't even tell him. How much he was loved. I was jealous of what he had. But I didn't know the truth then. And now, I remember all the times he went against everything to save me. How he married cemre for my sake. How he went through a fire for me. Even after all the things Seniz told him. He still tried to help me. He must've felt so alone. I can't erase from my memory the look in his eyes when he tried to kill himself. He must've been drowning in so much pain to want to take his own life. But I was in pain too so I couldn't forgive him. 

But now, if he only opens eyes, moves his fingers...anything. I'll forgive it all. He's my brother. He's the brother I always wanted. I won't let him go anywhere. He will be with me. And we will find a way to a new beginning. 

Cemre POV

I am outside Seniz's hospital room. The conversation she had with Cenk won't leave my head. I keep repeating it over and over again.

"I love her, I do. She got used to the darkness but she belongs to the light. It's a happy ending, Nedim got better and now, Cemre can tell him how much she loves him. They'll be together. "

He thinks he won't get a happy ending because he is a monster. But everyone can change. Cenk already changed. He was there waiting for me when I left prison and no one else was. He married me to help his brother. He was going to leave me for Nedim. 

Cenk, you're not the bad guy in this story. I just need you to survive so that I can be the happy ending you deserve.