Why I looked to Calico Skies

Introduction

As of right now- I am alone in this little apartment, drawn to the window in which overlooks the busy Miami streets below.

I'm known to be the social butterfly, but currently that statement is false.
John was the only one to understand me. From my first steps-he was the one there for me..watching over me. As if he knew what damages I could do. As well as my fiancée. In whom has been so dear to my heart, for I will miss him dearly.
It'll be hard for him to understand. Yet, if John was here to help, he would.

because late tonight, after our engagement party- I had swallowed a hand full of pills. The kinds prescribed by my doctor, in which helps my insomnia, and chronic depression.
Yet, I had not only taken those- but all the pills I could find in the cabinets. The cabinets that my fiancée locked, that is.

and now, as the world spins around me, as my brother's name flashes across my tv screens, as my heart slows down- I am left with one thing to say-

I'm coming, John.