HER STORY (ON HOLD)

02

February 2-3, 2020

It is true... that sometimes eyes cannot cry... because the heart does. 

It is true that... I am really sad right now.

It is true that... I am deeply overthinking everything. 

But... it is okay not being okay.

It is okay to understand my situation and the others situations....

okay to understand you than getting into a fight with you...

You want to know why? 

It is because I am afraid... afraid that you might leave me, might not like or even love me, might break my heart, and might give me pains and other feelings and emotions... so I do not want to fight with you. I don't want it to happen. 

It is okay that I carry the pain because it is not your fault. It is just my emotions and feelings that destroys my whole self. 

What do I need to do to be a just person when in fact, I am doing what is just? 

What?

Is it not enough?

Still not enough?

Then... what now? I will torture myself for the judgment of other people? I will express or change myself for me to be enough? That someone can be satisfied?

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My heart is slowly breaking into pieces. 

Ganito pala... ganito pala masaktan ng todo. 

Ganito pala... ganito pala maramdaman ang hindi mo pa nararamdaman.

Ang sakit malaman na may taong hindi boto sayo para sa taong gusto mo. 

Ganito pala... ganito pala kasakit kung paano kayo dati ngayon ay hindi na.

Ganito pala... ganito pala kasakit...

May mga pangyayari sa mundo na hanggang simula lang pala... na hindi kaya hanggang dulo.

May mga pangyayari sa mundo na mahirap intindihin at tanggapin...

pero sana naman...  

sana naman... sana naman tulungan mo ako, hindi 'yong bigla ka na lang susuko.

Please, help me. Don't give up. 

Please be a permanent one.