moon necklace | soonhoon

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Soonyoung and Jihoon sat outside the hospital, the air tense, as Jihoon tried to cope with what was happening.

He looked next to him, Soonyoung who still had tear stained cheeks looked miserable. Like he just came out of a theatre watching the saddest movie alive.

"Soon-" Jihoon started nervously. He wasn't the best at comforting people. If there was anything, he would have been more confused than concered.

Soonyoung had his head down low. It was about past midnight, both of them not daring to shut their eyes. They were just to suprised and taken aback by the situation that no one dared to speak.

"I'm sorry."

Soonyoung spoke out, which made Jihoon confused what he was saying. "What do you mean?"

"I'm sorry for you having to see that. I usually don't be like that, but I guess you just had to see the bad side of me today, huh," he chuckled.

"Soonyoung what the hell are you talking about. It's not your fault. Cry as much as you want. I promise I won't judge." Jihoon said trying to ease the situation.

"No it's not that-" he paused. "It's because of how I had to ruin the mood for you. We were just supposed to have fun and talk about the competition but it didn't work. Instead, I ruined the whole night. Great of me, right?"

"Who the fuck said you ruined the mood. If it's anything, I ruined your moment. You and your sister were so close, it felt wrong for me to be there. I had no right to be there. I was useless," Jihoon sighed.

"Oh please. I'm the one useless here. I couldn't even answer her question. I was scared of explaining it to her. I was scared what she might think and if she would react, or put a blame. I don't want that. I want my family to be happy. I don't want any of them to carry a burden. I love them, and I don't want to do that to people I love."

Silence roamed once again. But this time, the silence wasn't anything to like. It was a silence that could disturb their peace. Each second would bring tense times.

"I..." Soonyoung choked. "My dad, he took care of the both of us. Our mom died giving birth to Soonji. So he was our only hope. He would spend plenty of time with us, reading us bed time stories, cooking, dancing, everything. He was like a two in one," he chuckled.

"But it didn't really last long. About 3 years ago, he got in a huge debt with his supposed friend."

He stopped as tears started streaming down his face and his voice got softer and softer each word.

"At that time, I really wanted to go with my friends and show them how cool I was. I loved my dad, but I didn't want to show them that I came from a poor family. I was ashamed about where I came from.

So I stole money from my dad a couple of times. Little did I know that the money that I was stealing was what he used to pay his debt.

I stole. And stole. And stole."

Jihoon could sense the fear and regret in his voice. Without hesitating, he rubbed his back trying to calm him down.

"One day, the due came. His friend was really abusive. I thought that you know, since they were friends maybe he would let it slide for a bit? But no.

Soonji was in the house that time.

The man threatened to kill Soonji. Officers said he had a gun and really recked the house before that.

But my father was a loving man. He would sacrifice his own life for the sake of those he love. He begged the man to kill him instead and-"

Soonyoung choked up in his words. His arms dropped to his sides, the life in his eyes drained out.

"He did. H-he killed dad... He shot him 3 times in the heart. Killing him instantly.

I-I didn't get to say goodbye to him. The last time I talked to him was when we argued. I got mad at him and said I didn't steal the money.

He knew I was lying. But he didn't even get mad. He still had his smile in his face, and said that he won't get mad if I told him the truth. I should've. Ever since then, I didn't go home and stayed in my friend's house. Until I heard the news."

Jihoon stopped stroking his back, suprise entered him as well.

"Soonji was watching. The sight made it so hard for her. I couldn't inagine even myself seeing my very own father die before my eyes. And hard for the murderer as well. I heard that her eyes were cut by sharp glass. She was the one who saw dad's last words.

She got hospitalized and was diagnosed with a disorder which made her unable to see, so they had to stitch her eyes.

It was dreadful. But there had been no other choice. It was something or nothing. But I regret everything. Everyday I wake up just to remind myself of the guilt and the same words repeating again and again. I am the murderer, I killed my father. If it weren't for me, he would've still been alive and been playing with Soonji, with both of them being a happy family. I'm just the extra. I live no purpose. I'm hopeless. It's all my fault-"

He wasn't able to continue as a slap came across his cheek. The redness and pain
stung, which made him touch his cheek.

"You're not fucking useless. If it weren't for you, your sister wouldn't even be here. She would've just rot up with your dad. But she's still living and breathing. If it weren't for your hope in her, she wouldn't have talked to you a moment ago. But here we are, outside of the hospital. You helped her even if you knew that there had been no chance. But you still had hope. You still believed in her, and I'm sure by the stories you'd been telling me I'm sure that your dad would been really proud of you too. And you should be proud of yourself as well, Kwon Soonyoung."

"J-Jihoon..." Soonyoung mumbled. The guilt pressuring him once again. The pain encountered him, but not as the way it did before.

Somehow, Jihoon changed him. The pain he aas feeling was no longer the anxiousness he was holding up, but it was the pain of himself.

He never realized that. It took him 3 years to realize that it wasn't his fault. And it was true. He shouldn't stack up all of his problems for something that can't be fixed. Because crying and worrying wont change back the time. It would just make him feel worse.

And Jihoon was right. He just needed time to know that he should have hope in himself like how he had hope in others.

His words were all washed away. He swallowed them back as he wasn't able to say anything. He pulled in and hugged Jihoon tight.

"Thanks," Soonyoung said. Jihoon who didn't answer nor hug back just nodded.

Soonyoung pulled away and wiped some of the tears that were once from his eyes. "I promise that I won't be like that again. I promise I'll have more faith in myself next time."

Jihoon smirked, holding out his pinky. "Promise, no matter what the situation?"

Soonyoung stared at it for a few seconds before locking in his pinky.

"Promise."

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Love. Disgusts me.

I thought as I took pictures of the two, each picture giving a clicking sound.

I took a picture as both of them started interlocking their fingers with one another.

"It really does disgust me."

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