lie ➸ J9 ✔

fin : acceptance

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Weeks of proper medication. Joong was looking so fine. He function accurately and looking to be fine any time soon. It also great that he was with his friend Phoom and Benjamin who will look out of him. He wanted to healed already so he can go back to school in real soon.

Joong is now ready to take another step in his life. Cause he had to. It was summer break but he had to go to school to enroll himself. He was nervous and kinda anxious but still he had that urge to move forward. Even though memories will triggered him again. He was so afraid at first because what if his illness will be back again and make him another episode. But then he keep push through it besides he was taking medications.

Good thing he managed those and succesfully enrolled himself to a summer class. He was walking in the hallway and he was about to go home. When he saw him. It was Nine. He refuse to believe.

"Is that really him?" he utter to himself. He blink twice and meditate himself. He breath in and breath out.

It was really him. He was about to take a step to him when he immdiately turn his back to him.

"Wait Nine!!" he got froze. From the moment he called his name. His heart, its pounding in the same way like before. He fix himself and try to look cool when he look back to Joong.

He cant help but to cry inside of himself. He really miss him.

"Can we talk?" Joong asked him.

For him. He think its time for them..

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"Its been a long time" Nine started. They were in the garden of their campus. They are seated in the bench.

Joong stare at the sky before he could say what he wanted to say to Nine.

"I miss you"

He cant even say that. He know it wasnt necessary now.

"I heard that happen to you" Nine spoke first. Joong jerk at him.

"Yeah. But I'm okay now. Im making sure I'm taking meds everytime" Joong smiled the bitter one. He actually don't know what to say either to Nine. He feel such a fool right now.

"How's the marriage life?" that shit came out to Joong's mouth. He wanted to take back but he already asked that.

Nine was kinda shock. But he managed himself to answer in a best honest way.

"It was good" okay he lied a little. "Well still adjusting" he added. Well that was true tho.

It was awkward between them.

Nine kept glancing to Joong secretly. And also Joong did that same.

"Nine.." he finally get himself together.. "I know we are not really meant for each other but I'm still thankful that I met you. You thought me how to love and I wouldn't forget that. I still love you but I am in healing process so don't worry about me. And to the girl you married. Love her okay? Also told her to love you even more" he stand up and he face Nine who was still seated on his place. He extend his hand to him.

"Friends?" Joong trying to casual with him now.  This is what for the best for them and he believe on that.

While Nine was still confuse. He accept the handshake.  He was speechless.

"I'll better off now. See you around" Joong again smiled to him that made Nine's heart broken into pieces.

He was staring to Joong take off to his sight. It was only him now. His tears that he tried to console now he was starting to cry.

"Im sorry Joong" tears flows to his cheeks rapidly. It was still hard for him to face the reality that Joong and him aren't now together and getting to used as a husband of somebody else.

"I was there Joong. You aren't hallucinating"

That night when Joong was in the dark room. Nine left out the city to go to Joong to check him. Cause Earth had called him. His grand father told him that Joong was on the private island that he once brought Joong there. He was worried cause might something happen to him. When he reach there he found Joong crying alone in the dark room, he kept pushing him away. And that broke him. He know he was the one who hurt him. Even though he knows he will committed a mistake that night he didn't care. He stayed for a night with him. He kissed him as a bid of goodbye.

- The End -

a/n : another sad ending. im sorry for the late update and i even put this book in drafts again. i hope you still like it even it ends like that.