Love & Acceptance

Ch. 18

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Ariana's POV:

There it is again. That weird tingling feeling in the pit of my stomach. It happened last night as well when Y/n kissed me. However, this time it's stronger, and all I know is that I kind of like it.

FLASHBACK

I turned, so that I was facing Y/n, I want a real answer out of her about us. No more one word answers or escapes, just the truth.

"Y/n?"

I could tell she was nervous when I said her name.

"I know you've told me multiple times but...are we good? Like for real, real, because I don't feel like we are. Is something bothering you? Because I feel like you've been avoiding me since the celebration party, and if you don't want to hangout with me anymore, you can just say so."

"What? No, I don't want to stop hanging out with you!" She says, finally looking at me.

"You don't?"

"No I don't. Ari, look, we're fine, I promise. I've just had a lot on my mind these past couple days and haven't been able to get much sleep. It has nothing to do with you, I swear." She says.

She's lying. She has a good poker face, but right now I can see straight through her.

"I don't believe you."

"W-What?" She says.

"I know you're hiding something and I wanna know what it is Y/n. No more lies."

I try to study her face to figure out what is going on in her head, but she turns away.

"Y/n" I pull her head back to mine and I can see the fear in her eyes.

"Please, I just want to help."

"Ari I-" she starts, but pauses and her eyes shift. However, too fast for me to tell where.

"I'm sorry." She says.

"Why are you sorry?"

"For this."

It all happened so fast. Y/n leaned in and placed her lips on mine, but I was in too much shock to do anything back. I didn't think she liked me that way or that she was even bisexual or gay or whatever she defines herself as. Her lips were soft and even though I didn't kiss her back, I was able to faintly taste something sweet on her lips.

When she finally pulled away and I opened my eyes, hers were already open and I could tell she was terrified.

"I-I'm sorry. I think I should uh head home." She says, while standing up.

"Y/n-"

"Bye."

She didn't say another word, she didn't look back at me, she just left.

I debated messaging her, but with how she's been the past week, I decided to not even try. Plus, I thought we could both use the space.

I didn't know what to think of the situation. I haven't been with anyone since Pete, other than Courtney stealing a kiss every now and then when we drink. I don't even know if I find myself attracted to girls. I never really gave it much thought, until that night...It was all I thought about.

END OF FLASHBACK

Somehow I ended up pushing Y/n against a wall, as we continued to kiss. Something about her just lights a fire inside of me that makes me want to keep going. However, I feel Y/n gently push me back, telling me that she wanted to stop, so I pulled away.

"Everything okay?" I ask.

"I-" she pauses, then let's out a loud sigh.

"I think it would be best if this doesn't happen again." She says.

"Oh"

I won't lie. A small part of me took that personally, but I know she didn't mean it that way, I just can't help but see it that way.

"It's not that I don't like what just happened, it's that I don't want to make things weird between us." She says.

"Well I think we've burnt that bridge already." I tell her, giggling a little.

"Fine, any weirder than it already is okay?" She says.

I don't know why, but something about her words upset me.

"Yeah, sure. Whatever. I'm gonna head home now. I'll see you tomorrow." I tell her, then quickly leave her alone in the gym.

Why am I being petty? It was just a kiss. Get over yourself Ariana, not everyone has to like you, I told myself as I started my car and left.

Y/n's POV:

Well, I didn't see that coming. After standing in the gym alone for almost ten minutes, I finally left. Of course I didn't really want Ariana to stop, I just don't want to get hurt or be used to explore her curiosity. I mean, I guess I can't say much, seeing as for my own newfound feelings for her...but I've been trying to figure them out for weeks now. Why does everything always have to be so damn complicated?

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I finally make it back to my apartment, and I'm about to unlock the front door, when I notice it's already open. A second later and I hear shuffling and then a crash like glass breaking.

"I swear to god, whoever is trying to rob me, today is their unlucky day! Because I'm not in the mood."

I kicked open the door, and prepared myself to beat the mother fucker.

"Jesus Christ! Y/n! Don't go scaring me like that! I already broke my favorite lamp!" A girl shouts.

My eyes go wide when I realize who's standing before me.

"Jasmine?"

"Hey roomie, miss me?" She says.

Well shit, and I didn't think this day could get any stranger.

To Be Continued...