The thunder lightning was scaring her
The vacant feeling of despair and
Monster of depression haunting her
She is worried for him
And angry on herself for doing the shit
Why his matters are affecting her.
This man is a nightmare
His absence and presence both are unsettling.
She wants to run away from him
But end up going back to him
And then again finding reasons to get distant
What a mess this is
The door gets open and he enter drenched in water.
She kept looking at him
As he goes to the key stand to hang the key and then turn to see her sitting on sofa gazzing at him
"You won't believe what I did.
I met an officer who was in the detention center with Naveen.
He got cleared from the charges and is now working for army again"
He said taking out his jacket and wiping his hairs with a towel. And she is watching him like a statue
"He said that he has some potential information about the days of Naveen in detention center
Usse waha kaun kaun Milne Aya tha
And much more."
And he open the fridge to take out water bottle.
"By the way
Tum bhi to Milne gayi thi....cl Puri se...Kya kaha unhone"
His cell started ringing
He took a sip before taking the call
"Han bol Adil"
Pause
"Main Ghar pe hun kyun"
Pause
And he saw Naina
"No I am fine.... Wo barish ki wajah se road jam tha"
Pause
"Sure by"
His eyes caught Huda's msg, he tap to open it
Sirji kaha ho ap Naina pareshan ho rahi hai.
Next he saw 25 missed calls from Naina.
And another text from Shalini asking where he is... And is everything fine.
Naina is worried.
"To cl Puri ne Kya kaha
Anything useful?"
He asked
Not sure how to deal with her sudden concern.
He got really overwhelmed
"wo sab chodo ..I am sorry I shouldn't have gone out like that....tum pareshan ho gayi Mai dinner laga deta hun ..tum ne subha se kuch khyaa bhi nahi hoga"
Saying he heads towards the kitchen
And saw khichdi in thehe cooker
"Tumne khichdi banai thi?"
He asked tasting the khichdi with spoon.
Thoda ruko main soup bana leta hun"
He is suddenly feeling positive and hopefull.
For the first time she has reacted so strongly towards him.
Did she actually cared and called so many people to ask about my whereabouts
He chopped some tomatoes and carrots and put the water to boil ...he feels like whistling
While she is sitting on sofa
Playing back last few hours in her mind.
fretting about being so concerned for him
scrutinizing the fact that why she was so worried about his safety
She is numb how to react now
She actually got nervous for him
No she can't loose like this
This is what he had planned
To trap her
What a brilliant contriver he is
Oh yes he did all this purposely
To break her down
"Naina Chalo soup tayyar hai "
He kept the soup bowl on the table
And set two plates.... And went to take the bowl of khichdi
He turned and saw her opening the table salt shaker and emptying it in the soup.... Spoiling the bowl of soup.
He saw her with questioning eyes.
While she was looking dangerous.
"8 mahine ho Gaye humari shadi ko
Apko samajh nahi ata ke I am not interested in talking to you."
"I HATE YOU"
she said with manic expression putting stress on each word.
Kaun si language mein bolun ke apko samajh mein aye ye bat.
Maine apko bas ek lead ke liye approach Kiya tha
Pura investigation sir pe lene ko nahi bola.... So stop poking your nose in between
And stop giving this Oscar winning performance of a caring well wisher
Stop pretending as if you are Soo concern.
I just gave you a chance to lessen your guilt by marrying you and letting you help me.
Apne is ram avtaar se ap dusron ko manipulate Kar sakte Hain.
But I know you very well.
this is my investigation
Apka mujhse mere bhaiyya se koi Lena Dena nahi hai
Maine cl Puri se Kya baat ki is none of your fucking business.
Aur ap kisse mil ke aye I don't give a fuck.
I don't owe you anything
"Maine kaha apse ? Koi bhi investigation karne ko ....nahi na...
To Kya zarurat thi ye drama karne
Aise gayab hone ki.
You did all this purposely na?
Ye dikhane ko that no matter how bitch I am you are Soo thoughtful.
That how much you care about proving my brother innocent
But the fact is that you are just an oportunist."
just a moment back he had felt butterflies fluttering in his stomach...goosebumps standing on his skin....
but now he is totally aghast.....
another series of accusations.....one more set of blames she thrusted upon him.....
he dosent know how to justify himself....how to give her a proof that his motives are clear....how to assure her that he would never take advantage of her.....
just a few moments ago...she gave him a tiny hope to cling on.....but her words as sharp as a knife....cut down that string ....and now his stomach growls as the gravity pulls him down in the pit of dispair he struggles to pull himself out of....with a hope...that one day....maybe a some day...she ll look back at him the way she once did. ....maybe someday...she ll love him too......
"i cant do it..."he says...she looks at him as he pauses...
"i cant stay out of your buisness"
he gulps down the lump in his throat and even as it chokes him he says...
"mai jaanta hun ki tumhe mujhse aur is rishte se nafrat hai...main tumhe zeher lagta hun
.par jab tak tum is ghar me meri biwi ki haisiyat se ho...tumhari har baat ka khayal rakhna mera farz hai.....i cant help it ."he breathes heavy as he completes the sentence as if stating a fact and she stares at him...with a fluttering chin...
"I am giving you access of my intelligence information.... You know how sensitive it is... That's why you are accountable to keep me updated"
he wants to go on and say her she can chose to break this relationship if she wants....but the mere idea of her not being in the peripheri of her vision scares him to death...
he can make do with this proximity....this resentment...this angst...but the idea of letting her go is so terrifying that he gulps down the pain she inflicts on him on a daily basis like its his routine. .....
she goes inside banging the door to convey her resentment.....leaning against it with almost no strength left to hate him......
he quietly cleans up the dining table discarding the soup and keeping khichdi in the fridge.... and makes his bed as if the storm that just passed by didnt wreck him that bad.......
but as the light goes off he could feel the lump he shoved down his throat rising up ....
it takes a lot of effort to console what had broken inside him...and tuck it back to sleep...telling its okay...just one more night....
she has her sunglasses on in the morning while still indoors
to hide those puffy eyes......while heading to work ...
"Kal hi Khushi mili thi
Jaldi mein thi ruki nahi"
Credit heeba
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