seene meñ jalan āñkhoñ meñ tūfān sā kyuuñ hai
is shahr meñ har shaḳhs pareshān sā kyuuñ hai
dil hai to dhaḌakne kā bahāna koī DhūñDe
patthar kī tarah be-his o be-jān sā kyuuñ hai
tanhāi kī ye kaun sī manzil hai rafīqo
tā-hadd-e-nazar ek bayābān sā kyuuñ hai
ham ne to koī baat nikālī nahīñ ġham kī
vo zūd-pashemān pashemān sā kyuuñ hai
kyā koī nayi baat nazar aatī hai ham meñ
āina hameñ dekh ke hairān sā kyuuñ hai
By - shahryar
....he was driving silently past the sealink the speed uneven and damgerously uniform speed ...as if trying to finally reach to the end he is intended to.
.his grip on the steering firm and his eyes on the road as blank as a canvas....
adil looks at his uninterrupted somnolence.....his attempt to hold everything back for one last time...the way his eyes were reddening implied how much of an effort it was taking....
for many reasons ..adil doesnt understand his friend....he was indecipherable ,destructive and very well aware of the fact that he has voulenteered for a ride in a brakeless car driving down a dead end...
what kind of person bears so much.....that too for a woman who hates him with such a desperate sincerelty..
he almost dreads the fact that he has to jolt his friend out of his stupor...
"rajveer tu rehne de ..mai drive karta hun.."his voice not reaching him...the moments he witnessed a few minutes back flashing past his eyes till his vision becomes hazy
a guy honks at the back of the car...
adil is restless..as rajveer isnt reacting ..just keeps driving as if in a trance.....
finally the guy bumps his car with theirs.from behind making theirs jolt and settle at the divider....
rajveer halts the car....and so does the person behind...
rajveer calmly gets out of the car... windshield of that mans car ..asking him to get out ....which he does
He grabbed the man with his collar and threw him on the car Bonet.
"Rajveer nahi"
Adil shouted and got down from the car...
By now Raj was punching his face black and blue.
Adil ran to him
"Rajveer chod use"
...he beats the shit out of the man....till he is all red and blue..
"rajveer chhod use....sale chhod ..."adil. gets control of him...and drags him to the driver seat...
driving him away from there as fast as he can.
"sale chutiye...dimaag kharab hai tera"
he yells in agitation....
and the vehicle finally stops..and his heart starts gaining its rythm..
rajveer leans on the steering breathing heavy...
"sale jaan le leta uski ..."adil yells at him....he keeps mum
adil looks at his friend pitifully ...at what he made of himself.
"dekh rajveer....mujhe nai pata aisa kya hai tum dono ke beech.....par tu ab us rishte me nai rahega....."he sternly instructs..
"jo cheez takleef de use chhod dena hi behtar hota hai...look at u man...that bitch...has corrupted you like a cancer....isse pehle ki ye zeher aur phaile tere andar usse apni zindagi se nikal de....jadd se...."
he is agitated...
"dekh bhai....chhod de use...i beg of you...."he literally pleads on his friends behalf.
"aisi ashiqui bhi kya jo tere wajood ko hi kholhla kr de..lalat hai uspe aur terepe.......how could u watch her with someone else..how can u still not want to strangle her.....bhool ja use yaar .....nikal phek di se sali ko"he tries to counsel his friend ...
"wahi to nahi karsakta mai...."he speaks after a ten minute long pause......
breathing heavy....his skin gets clammy his words shivering on his tongue...his fingers trembling..
he suddenly breaks in fits of sobs.
"i cant let her go.....i cant "he cries in a way that would tell how each and every peice of his bone is shattered...how inbincible his pain is....how deep she stabbed on his heart ....
"kyun...."adil yells in frustration..
"bohot pyaar karta hun usse...mar jaunga uske bina....usi ke sahare to khud ko zinda rakha hai yaar....."he cries again...
"aghhhh...."yelling ..as his eyes turn hazy ..."mai bohot bada chutiya hun yaar.wo baar baar mujhe hamare. rishte ki sacchai yaad dilati hai...mai baar baar use andekha kar ke khwaab dekhne lag jata hun."he hiccups..
"wo kyun mujhe nai samajhti yaar....kyun mujhe itna takleef deti hai..wo kaise kisi aur ke sath."he dosent even utter the whole.sentence.
"wo kyun mujhe nai samajhti...tu bata na use yaar...mai mar jaunga uske bina..wo kyun nai samajhti..."he keeps crying as adil holds him firmly....as he keeps muttering "mai usse bohot pyaar karta hun...yaar...use bol na..ye sab band kare..."
adil dosent know how to console his friend..rajveer sobs away all what had been congesting his chest since eight months.....and long before.uttering a single thing...that he loves her too much.....
!!!!!!!!!
It's 3 am,she has not returned yet.
He open the bar cabinet and too out a bottle of whiskey.
tum se chhuT kar bhī tumheñ bhūlnā āsān na thā
tum ko hī yaad kiyā tum ko bhulāne ke liye
by - Nida fazli
Written by heeba
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