Pretending to be strong, and pretending as if everything is okay and nothing is wrong is so difficult and tiring.
It's so exhausting.
I'm tired of pretending that I'm fine.
I'm tired of wearing the same ugly happy mask every single day.
I'm tired of faking my smile when deep inside I just want to cry and cry and cry till I die.
I'm so tired.
But I need to keep pretending everything is okay, fine, beautiful and colourful so that I don't have to talk about my indescribable feelings or whatever dark thoughts on my mind.
I guess saying that you're okay is so much easier rather than explaining all the reason why you're not, right?
Just keep on pretending.
Pretending, huh?
I'm really good at that.
It's a great talent I've acquired over the years.
