Kaishin One-Shot

I'm sorry (angst)

He wasn't supposed to be there... He was supposed to be with his guardian... He should felt insecure like he always did... He should be ready like he would... Why didn't he expect it sooner... Why didn't he defend himself... How could he let them cry... How could he left them all.... Why did you do that.... Why did you protect me when I was protecting you.... Why did you change our position... Why... Why... Why... Why...

"Meitantei!! Wake up please!" I shake the bloody body tears in the corner of my eyes.... my white attire has covered in blood... "Please!" The body didn't move an inch... I knew it... I failed... I... I lose someone I love... Twice... "Please... Wake up... I'm sorry..." everything became so loud... I could hear the footsteps of someone in a hurried state up the stairs.... I could hear sobs and screams.... I could hear the hearts breaking when they saw him... I look at them... My body started to vibrate.... Fears.... They see it... They could see my emotions... I look back at him.... how lifeless he looks... I remember his smile when he gave me before closing his eyes.... He shouldn't be the one who got shot.... No... I was... I saw how she drop onto her knees crying.... I see how their all crying... I see how the scientists girl holding her tears.... I see their reactions... It pains me... I look back at him... Another waves of tears hit me..... I couldn't bear it.... I cry loudly.... While hugging his dead body.... I know their looking at my pathetic state... I know they felt pity..... I know they thought that it wasn't my fault... He was kidnapped.... They made an announcement.... They show it live on screen that they threw him.... They saw how I jump and save him.... They saw how those guys shoot at me.... They saw how he changed our position.... They saw everything..... I pick the body up... Walking slowly towards his guardian..... I let her hold him... She cry harder while hugging his body.... I look at them in silence.... I look at the blonde girl.... She look at me too.... I mouth to her... She widen her eyes.... But she nod... I told her to tell them the truth.... And she agreed..... I step a foot back... It breaks my heart.... At my heist... No one should cry... I want people to enjoy it... But now it destroy it for them.... "I'm sorry." I left not letting them saying anything... Cause I know... Pity is all what I'll hear....

I'm hiding behind a tree.... Seeing them buried his body.... They write his real name..... Not his fake name.... They now know the truth.... I hear how she tell them.... I heard how she apologized.... I saw her.... His girlfriend.... Crying hard.... I know the little scientists could sense me.... I felt like crying... I know I couldn't.... I see you from a far.... There's always something..... A sentence... That I want you to hear.... But.... I was afraid.... You had a girlfriend..... And I know.... I will never had the chance..... I was a coward.... I'm afraid.... You would look at me...... I don't want to see..... A disgusted look.... On your precious face.... She talk to me..... She gave me a small letter... Before I could ask what.... She left....

I opened it ...... I was shock.... Tears started to raise..... I read the letter one by one..... Hope to see a grammar errors.... But... Who am I kidding.... It's you who wrote it.... You wouldn't be wrong.... Your always right.... I cry so hard.... I just read until middle... And I couldn't anymore.... I was so hopeless.... I was so naive..... I was so stupid.... You broke up with her.... Because..... Of me.... Why.... I read further.... And I cry even more.... My neighbor come into my room.... She saw me crying.... She was shock.... She hug me and comfort me.... I cry even harder.... Wishing it was you who hug me....

I took a lot of day off from school.... Everyone is worried.... My condition.... It's getting worst... My mom were worried.... She came back home.... Taking care of me.... She saw how lifeless I was.... She tried to force me.... But... I just couldn't.... My soul has left me..... I sleep way lesser.... Because.... I'm afraid.... Every time I sleep... I saw you... Your smile... It's haunting me.... Your warmth... Why did I feel all that.... Your dead.... Your not by my side anymore... But... Why do I feel you.... Why did you felt so warm.... Why did you felt so alive....

I'm at your library.... Your parents were out.... Visiting you I guess.... I sat down on the leather couch of yours.... I was surrounded by books... Not any normal books.... But your favourite...... Am I going crazy... I can see you.... Every version of you... From a baby to teenager.... I can see you... Flipping the book... From pages to another.... I can see how you smile when.... Sherlock Holmes solves the crime.... I could see you.... Everywhere... My mind is playing tricks....

I'm holding a gun... Weird right.... For someone who had the rule of.... No harmful weapon.... I hold a real gun.... Not my normal card gun.... I see you smiling.... I point it to my forehead.... Wanna know something.... My name is Kuroba Kaito..... I wanna tell you the while reason I became.... This.... But... I couldn't..... I'm ready... I felt so happy.... I saw you smiling.... Are you waiting for me.... And I could hear someone crying..... I... Kuroba Kaito... Was deeply in love.... With no other than.... Kudo Shinichi..... I want to say sorry to Aoko for lying..... I hope you will have a good life.... Now goodbye.....

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The next day there were thousands of reporters.... The highlights of the week... Aoko cry when she heard the tape that he had recorded.... They all felt sorry and hurt ..... Who would have thought that the one and only Phantom Thief would killed himself on the chair of his love one.... Even Hakuba couldn't take the news....

Kaito KID
was found dead
in Kudo residents
A bullet to his head...
The police said that it was....
A suicide.

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I cried a bit writing this... Hope you enjoy it....