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^^The song is on the second slide. Play it when I say to halfway through the story.

[Milan's POV]

It's been about a week since the girls have came for tour and there is only two shows left for tour and I'm getting very scared for it because I have to go back home and I'm not going to see Nick for a while.

I'm moving to California in about a month, so I will see him then, but a month without him is going to suck and I can't stop thinking about it.

Everyone is in the venue right now and I'm laying in Nick's bed with the blankets covering me. I can't stop crying because I don't want to leave him in two days. It's making me so upset. I know it sounds dramatic, but he is my best friend and I don't want to leave him. I've also gotten so close to him that it's like a habit to be with him all the time and now I won't be able to sleep with him or cuddle with him. Kiss him or hug him.

The door opens to the bunks and I close Nick's curtains very quickly, so whoever is here can't see me crying like a baby.

"Milan?" I hear. It's Nick. Crap, I didn't want him to find me in here crying. I don't want to put more stress on him.

I wipe my tears away and I sniffle a bit, but I know that he is going to see that I was crying.

"Yes?" I say quietly. He pulls the curtain back and I turn my back to him, so I am now facing the wall.

He slides into the bed with me and wraps his arms around me. His chest rests against my back as he curls his body around me. "Mamas, what's wrong?"

When he asks me that I instantly start crying even harder than ever. He flips me on top of him, so his back is on the bed and the front side of my bottom is laying completely on top of him. He covers us up with a blanket and kisses the top of my head.

"Milan, talk to me. What happened?"

"I j-just don't w-want t-to leave you n-next month," I say.

He sighs and starts to rub my back, "Ma, it's okay. It's not permanent. It'll only be for about a month and then we will be together again."

"B-but that's t-to long and you you know h-how I am," I say.

"Shh, baby girl. Stop crying. It's okay. I'm not going anywhere. Yes, it's going to suck, but it'll all be okay and worth it because you are moving to California."

I sniffle again, "I know, but but it's s-still sad t-that we have to be apart."

"Yes it does suck, but it'll be worth it," he says, "We will be back together before we know it and we will FaceTime every single day."

"Promise?"

"I promise."

We lay there for about twenty minutes in complete silence. It's not uncomfortable at all. It's complete comfortable silence and it feels good.

Nick breaks it by saying, "I wanna talk about you moving, though?"

I look up at him, "What do you mean?"

"Well I know that it's probably way too soon to be asking you this, but I want to be with you all the time and I know how much a house costs in California. It's not cheap at all. So I was wondering if you wanted to move in with the boys, girls, and I?"

"Really?" I ask. "The boys don't care?"

"Not at all. We talked about a couple days ago and they were completely fine with it. The girls already lived with us, so it's no change for one more. I just don't want to rush you. I know we've only been dating for a little over a month."