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Welcome to Wonderland

Play the song while reading.
Includes:
Suicide
Mentions of cutting
Tododeku
Angst
No quirks

Todoroki pov

I walk to class with my books close to my chest. I don't want anyone to see the scars so I hold down my sleeves with my books. I see my boyfriend, Izuku, but it's not him. He died from suicide 3 years ago. I feel tears forming but I hold them down and take a seat in the back of the class. Everyone is talking but I can't hear them. All I can think about is Zuku and all the blood.

-flashback-
I run into his house and up to his room despite the shouts from the police telling to stop. I run into his room and collapse. He's laying there in a pool of his own blood with a bloody knife, an empty pill bottle and a folded piece of paper. He's so pale, his arms covered in cuts and blood. I grab the paper and slowly unfold it while sobbing.

Dear everyone,
I'm sorry it came down to this. I tried, I really did. I tried making everyone smile, laugh and be happy. But nobody saw the pain I was putting myself through to make them happy. Todoroki, I love you so much and this has nothing to do with you but you deserve so much better than a piece of shit like me, a useless Deku. I'm so sorry I did this to you Todoroki. But I couldn't take the pain anymore. You guys don't need me anyway, you'll be fine without me. So, I'm going to take myself out of the picture. Goodbye.

I scream. The police try taking me from the room but I thrash. I kick and punch and scream. They eventually let me go after they realize I'm not leaving him. Bakugo runs into the room and I stand up. He looks at Zuku and starts crying then looks at me.

"Todoroki, I'm so-"

I punch him. He grabs his cheek and looks like he's gonna punch back but stops, knowing that's not what Zuku would want. I hand him the note then leave. I look back and see him crumble to the floor and start sobbing.

-flashback end-

He gave me back the note the next day at school and people tried talking to me but I ignored them. Eventually they got the hint that I wasn't going to talk and the stopped trying all together. I keep the note in my wallet at all times. The bell rings signaling the end of the day. I slowly grab my stuff and walk back to my house. My fathers on a business trip for a few more weeks so I have the house to myself except for Fuyumi, who's at a friends house tonight. Today is the perfect day to do it. I grab my bottle of pain killers and go to the bathroom. I grab my razor from the drawer and start.

They hate you.

One cut.

He hated you.

Two cuts.

You're why he died.

Three cuts.

Nobody cares.

Fours cuts.

They don't care if you die.

Five cuts.

Nobody would notice you being gone.

Six cuts.

They will be glad that you're gone.

Seven cuts.

You're a nuisance.

Eight, nine, ten cuts.

You never should have been born.

Eleven, twelve, thirteen cuts.

The floor is covered in blood and I set down the blade. I grab my bottle and take three, then four more, then a couple more and I start to feel dizzy. My stomach starts to burn, like I'm on fire, but only on the inside. I fall to the ground and hit my head on the bathtub which only worsens the dizziness. My vision becomes hazy and I start seeing black. Someone comes into view and I realize it's Fuyumi. I hear her scream before nothing. My vision is consumed by black and I can't hear or feel anything. I did it. I'm dead. I see a white light and walk towards it. A green headed boy comes into my view. Midoriya! He looks at me and smiles. He holds out his arms and sparkles appear.

"Welcome to wonderland."