Includes:
Self harm
Suicide
Self doubt
Cute stuff ig
Angstttttttttt
Depression
Basically everything from last chapter Kamishinso
Short
-Kami pov-
It's been a week since Shinso committed suicide. It's been rough. I've been distracted during training that eventually Aizawa got so aggravated that he made me sit out. Ugh I'm so useless. Why? Why Shinso? Was I really that bad? I'm sitting in my bed crying. It's the weekend and my friends keep texting me but I just sit there, ignoring them. They occasionally knock on my door, but yet I sit there pretending I don't exist. I haven't eaten all week and my body is paying the toll. My stomach feels like it's on fire. My body's cold all the time, I'm exhausted, I feel weak as hell. God why am I still alive? He's not here anymore so why am I? Fuck it. I stand up really slowly getting dizzy from lack of nutrition. I slowly make my way to the bathroom. I grab my blade and walk to the roof. I make sure nobody sees me as I walk there for fear that they would talk to me or stop me. I open the door to the roof and walk outside. The setting sun looked beautiful. I remember the first time Shinso brought me here.
-flashback-
He took my hand, smiling as we ran up to the roof.
"Hurry Kami! We're gonna miss it!"
"Miss what?"
He puts a hand on the door as soon as we get there.
"You'll see."
He has an adorable glimmer in his eyes as he open the door to reveal a beautiful sunset. I'm in shock as I gaze at the sky. He takes my hand and pulls me after him to sit down near the edge. We sit with our legs dangling over the edge. I watch in awe as the colors all fade together, from red, orange and yellow to pink and purple then to blue with the stars coming out. I look back at Shinso. He grinning ear to ear. God he looks so beautiful. I want to kiss him. He's not even gay though so I can't.
"What's wrong Kami? Isn't it amazing?"
"Omg Shinso, it's beautiful but I was just thinking."
"Oh that's never good."
He smiles an adorable smile. I lightly punch his shoulder.
"Shuddup bro."
He starts laughing as I pretend to be mad. But how could I be mad at him? I soon start laughing with him. We stop after a moment and just look at each other. Without knowing it, I leaned in and kissed him. He seemed shocked at first but soon enough, he relaxed into the kiss. We pull away and just look at each other.
"I've been wanting to do that for so long Shin."
"Me too Kami."
We kiss again then lay down on the roof, gazing at each other the sky as it became engulfed in black with stars.
-flashback end-
I start crying at that memory and walk to the edge. I hold the blade to my skin, press down hard and glide it across my arm.
He hated you! You didn't deserve him! You're not worth living! You should have never been born!
My arm is covered in blood and my uniform becomes drenched. I soon become even more lightheaded due to blood loss. I drop the blade and look over the edge. Here we go. I lean forward and fall. I plummet towards the ground and for an instant, as I hit the ground I'm hit with excruciating pain. But just for a second then I feel nothing. Then, I feel amazing and healthy. Then everything comes back to me. I remember all the memories I made with my friends. I remember my friends. I don't regret this one bit though. But, too all my friends, I'm sorry.
Sorry for thy angst but like it's really fun to write. It gives me a release and gives y'all something to read. Bye my children 😘😘
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FanfictionJust some bnha oneshots. If you don't like the ships, don't read it. It's that simple. Have a great day my children. DISCLAIMER!!!!!! I do not own any of the characters or the anime though I do love it.
