Summer Love

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"Hey one second i have to answer this" he said and me and James both nodded while he answered the phone. "Why are you calling me" he said "I thought we both agreed to not talk anymore." It went silent then his eyes got huge. "Wait what" he said "I'm sorry I couldn't have heard you right." There was another moment of silence before he spoke again. "How, how do you know" he said. "How do you know it's mine" he said and me and James both looked at each other. Paul looked over at me and turned around and walked inside.

"Wow" we both said at the same time.

"Watch it be like he left something at her house" James said and I nodded and we both fell silent.

"It's definitely not" I said as all the possibilities started running though my head. He says he'd never cheat on me, he didn't right? I haven't been here nine months so there's a possibility he was dating someone and broke up before we came. But what if he cheated on me and she just found out. What if she's like a month a long. "I don't know" I said again "but I sure hope it's nothing."

"Come on lets play one on one while he's inside" James said and I looked up at him and he gave me a sympathetic smile. "You can start" he said and he passed me the ball. I shot a three and made it and he smiled. "Make it take it" he said and I shrugged.

"I don't really care" I said "whatever you want to do" I said and he smiled and nodded.

"Alright" he said and he took the all from me.

"That's unfair you made it seem like you were going to let me have it" I said and he smiled.

"Well you said I got to do what I wanted" he said and he started to dribble and I played defense on it. I tried to block him but obviously I'm to short to. "Shorties got hops" he said one he handed me the ball. I drove around him and he blocked me.

"Unfair" I exclaimed and he smiled.

"I can't help that I'm tall" he said and I laughed.

"If you could would you wanna be short" I asked him and he nodded. "I guess whatever you are you want to be the opposite cause I'd wanna be tall."

"Yeah I guess that's how it works" he said and we continued to play our small game that we had started. We both stopped and looked at Paul when we heard the door close. Everything that I was previously worried about but had forgotten instantly came flooding back when I was him. "You've got some explaining to do" James said and Paul nodded.

"I do, but I need to figure out how to word it first" he said and James rolled his eyebrows.

"I don't know if that's smart" he said.

"Well it's my story to tell not yours" Paul said and he picked up the ball from my feet. "Do you wanna finish practice" he asked me and I shrugged.

"I don't care" I said "whatever you want."

"No" he said sternly "it's whatever you want." I sighed and rolled my eyes.

"We can finish then" I said and he nodded and we finished what we were doing before we went to run. "What are we running" I asked him and he shrugged.

"I actually don't know either sprints or the neighborhood" he said and I nodded.

"Sprints" I said and he nodded.

"Alright we'll run sprints then" he said. He told us where to run and then he told us when to go. "Go again" he told me as soon as I had reached him. I turned around and ran it again. He gave us a thirty second break before he made us run it again. We ran it over and over and over again until me and James were both dying. "Last one" he said and he pulled out his phone. "Thirteen seconds" he said and we both ran it in nine. "Your done for the day" he said and he slipped his phone back in his pocket. James walked by and I walked passed Paul to go in and I felt him put his hand on my shoulder. I shrugged it off and he sighed. "I'm sorry" he whispered and the hurt in his voice was enough to make me stop in my place and turn around. "I'm so sorry" he started to say.

"I don't want to hear it" I said "I'm only talking to you to make sure your ok with it." He nodded Nd then shrugged.

"I don't know what I'm ok with anymore Donovan" he said and I raised my eyebrows slightly. "I never thought I was gay, I never thought I'd get someone pregnant before marriage, I never thought I'd see Alex again, I never thought I'd end up dating someone I invited over, I never thought any of this would happen Donovan. It all just did and I don't even know what I consider right and wrong anymore." He said and I nodded.

"Well I never thought I'd be dating you either" I said "and I never thought you loved me the same way I loved you anyways" I said and he sighed.

"I still love you Donovan" he said "I still love you more than I did yesterday, every day my love for you grows Donovan, nothing going to stop me from loving you." I nodded and looked down.

"And nothings going to stop me from loving you" I said and his eyes softened and he suddenly looked like he was about to cry.

"I'm so stupid aren't I" he said.

"Your not stupid Paul" I said and he looked down. "When did you two have sex" I asked him.

"Before you were even here" he said "right after you sent in your video."

"Wait what" I muttered "you made it look and sound like you cheated and you didn't."

"I never said I had cheated" he said and I shrugged.

"Whatever I'm not in the middle for any of this right now" I said. "First Alex and now this" I muttered "how many girls do you know that are gonna suddenly come back into your life."

"It's not like that 'Do' I'm never going to talk to Alex again." He said and I shrugged.

"Whatever" I muttered and he sighed.

"I'm sorry Donovan I didn't know" he said.

"I know you didn't know" I said "just like I know in nine months when your child is born your not going to know that you'd chose it over me."

" 'Do' you know that's not true" he said "you know I'd pick you over anyone in this world."

"Of course I know that by now" I said and I sighed and walked inside.

"When's his funeral" James asked once Paul walked in behind me.

"I don't even care" I said and he smirked.

"You sure seemed like you did" he said and I shook my head.

"I don't" I said and he smiled.

"But when he said..."

"I don't give a fuck who he dates or who he has sex with. It doesn't bother me and I'm surely not going to lose sleep over it so just shut up" I snapped and his eyes got huge and he immediately fell silent. Paul stifled a laugh and I glared at him. Honestly I was not in the mood to be messed with right now. I grabbed my phone of the counter where I had left it before practice and I walked upstairs and I went to my room. There was a knock on the door and I didn't say anything.

"It's me" I heard James say softly and I sighed.

"You can come in" I said and he opened the door and he leaned against the wall by the door.

"I'm sorry" he said "I didn't really know that it hurt you that much." I smiled and little and nodded.

"It's fine" I said "how would you know anyways we always make it seem like we aren't together when we really are and you probably don't even know that to think."

"I know but I still shouldn't have said that and nagged you like that" he said and I shrugged.

"It's ok" I said and he smiled and nodded.

"Trust me Donovan, I can tell just by the way he looks at you, he's pick you over that child or her any day." He said before he walked out and I thought about what he had said. Is that true? Would he really pick me over them. Or is that just what he try's to make me believe.