Just a Nightmare | Erwin Smith x Suicidal Reader

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Y/n awoke to yet another dream. Her breathing quickened and she felt her chest tighten. "Damnit." She muttered. She watched as Erwin's chest rose and fell with each breath. "I hate these damn nightmares." She said to herself. She walked into the bathroom and looked at herself in the mirror. "I look like shit." She whispered to herself. She turned the knobs on the shower to her preferred temperature. It was around 5:30. Early enough considering she slept most of the day yesterday.

She watched as Erwin rolled over, her eyes drifting to his sleeping face. She sighed before she walked into the room and kissed his cheek. Then she walked back into the bathroom. She slowly undressed. Running her fingers over the cuts on her wrists. She sighed before she stepped into the shower, the droplets hitting her skin. She softly rubbed the dirt off of her skin. Feeling cleaner after getting the sweat, blood, tears, and dirt off her skin. She hissed in pain as the water hit her cuts and scratches. She felt hot tears roll down her cheeks. She could hear footsteps in Erwin's room. She watched as Erwin looked in the mirror. He smirked once he saw her looking at him. He stepped closer to the shower and removed his clothes. He then stepped into the shower. She looked at him with her eyes wide before she tried to cover herself. He removed her hands. "Don't hide your body, you're beautiful just the way you are." Erwin said to her with a smile. She blushed. She looked down at her feet, he wrapped his arms around her bare body. She looked up at him and he smiled down at her. She pressed her body against his. He smiled and hugged her tightly. She watched as he ran his fingers along her sides. She looked up into his eyes. "Stop doing that." She hissed. The taller smirked. "And why is that, Princess?" He questioned. She turned and rinsed her body before washing her hair and body. Erwin doing the same. After she was done, she stepped out and grabbed a towel, wrapping it around her small pale body. After putting one around his waist, he held Y/n by her hips. Resting his chin on the top of her head. She looked up at the taller. "Hope you're enjoyinh yourself." She muttered. He smiled.  "I am actually." He lowered his head to her neck. Lightly kissing spots and lightly biting others. Y/n would moan a few times, but not loudly. She didn't need the entire Scouting Regiment knowing that the Commander was trying to give her hickeys. 

She lightly pushed his face away from her neck. He looked at her with sadness but then realized that he had more paperwork to do. By the time he had gotten into his room, Y/n was already half-dressed. She had her white jeans and bra on. Just slipping her shirt over her shoulders. As she was buttoning her shirt, she turned to see Erwin, struggling to pull his jeans over his hips. "God damnit." He muttered. Y/n sighed a buttoned the last few buttons before walking over to Erwin. "Need help?" She cocked her head to the side slightly. "I think I can manage." Erwin muttered as he finally got the jeans zipped and buttoned. She sighed and slipped her straps over her white jeans and (f/c) shirt. She fixed her straps and slipped her uniform jacket over her shoulders. Then putting her boots over her feet. She kissed Erwin's cheek lightly before she went down to breakfast. 

She smiled when she saw Levi leaning against the doorway. Eren at his side. "Good morning, Captain!" Eren exclaimed as she shut the door. She hugged Levi tightly, Eren swore he saw the cold-hearted Captain smile. 

Cassandra was back again, shaking as she walked up the stairs before facing Levi. "If you're back to ask me out again, the answer is no. I'm gay for fuck's sake." Levi muttered as he slipped his hand behind Eren's back. Cassie looked into his eyes once before running back down to breakfast, crying. Levi snarled as the girl left. Y/n sighed. 

"Stop being so mean to my squad." She said with her hand on her forehead. Levi looked over at Eren. The boy shrugged. Levi turned back to Y/n, who was already walking down the stairs. Levi trailed his hand down Eren's back. Squeezing tightly as his pale fingers touched the boy's ass. Eren jumped. "L-levi!" He yelped as Levi grabbed his hand and walked with him hand in hand to breakfast. Erwin following close behind.