Rose✔

18.

Ash's Pov:

I slowly woke up and I felt like I had a major headache. I looked to my right to see Tylenol and a water bottle on my side table. I slowly sat up taking the Tylenol and drinking the water.

I grabbed my phone off of the side table. I was still getting texts. Even Zayn texted me. I opened his text.

Heard what happened..hope everything is alright with you. If you need to talk just let me know. I'm in town.

Z.

I looked at Louis' texts.

Helloo
Please answer
Ashton, everyone is looking for you.
Worried about you.
Heard you got home safely, call or text me back if you need to talk to anybody ❤️

I didn't need to look at the rest of my texts to know what they all said. It was the same thing. I doubt that they all actually care about my well being.

I walked out of my room and went straight to the kitchen. Hannuh wasn't here which means she's probably at work again. I grabbed a small glass cup and set it down on the counter.

I felt like shit but I didn't care. I just wanted the pain to go away. This feeling of heartbreak I had in my chest. I wish I could just turn off my feelings sometimes. I looked over at the cabinet. I didn't hesitate to grab another bottle of bourbon and pour some in my cup.

I took a gulp of it as I looked for something to eat. I heated up some leftovers in the microwave. After it was finished I grabbed it and set it down on the table. I grabbed the bottle of bourbon and filled the glass cup with it.

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After finishing my food, I got up while grabbing the bottle of bourbon and went back to my room. I sat on my bed, drinking for a while as I watched tv.

At this point I was passed buzzed. I looked down at my phone, wishing that I would get at least a text from Niall...but I didn't, nor even a call from him. After looking at his contact for what seems like forever, I finally decided to text him.

Whatever went through us Saturday night..it shouldn't have even gone that far between us two. I just wish I was able to tell you myself instead of you figuring it out the hard way. I was in the wrong for not telling you, yes, but Ellie shouldn't have told you my business. I'm questioning how she knew in the first place..it shouldn't matter I guess cause you know now. I know I should give you some space to think over things..but I can't help to at least text you cause I know you aren't really in the mood to talk to me. Which I get. Just please text me back. I want to talk to you 1 on 1, nobody else. Please hear me out Niall...I love you.

I kept looking at my text, hesitating if I should even send it or not. I kept reading it over and over to make sure it was perfect. At this point, I wasn't even sure if I should be sending the text. He doesn't want anything to do with me nor does my daughter.

As I was finally about to press send, my phone went black. I heavily sighed as I realized my phone was dead. I didn't even want to try to get up and charge my phone. Maybe it was a sign. I started to tear up and I drank some more. I held the bottle as I got up to walk to the living room. I was stumbling around.

I felt like everything around me was super slow and all I wanted was nothing more to keep drinking the pain away. It felt good to me..it was like an addiction.

I had this weird feeling in my stomach and I felt like passing out. I dropped the bottle on the carpet as I fell to the floor, passing out.