My Mind is Hell

Stupid girl(me)

My,my,what a stupid girl you are. Always thinking someone will actually stay. Thinking someone won't walk out and close the door behind them. How stupid of you to not finally lock the door and stop anyone from coming in. You know death can shut and lock that door. You'll be doing all of them a favor. Whenever that door is open a cold wind blows through. It has many different names. How bout Debra? Analexa? Axel? Let's name it Scarlet? Or Curt? Ida? Well there are many more,but that cold wind scares everyone. They run and run as far away as they can. They warn others of this cold wind. This cold wind controls your life. It grabs onto your mind and stays there! Waiting for someone who instead of being scared or it will scare it away. Make it feel bad so you won't feel bad. But your too stupid to let that happen. But you do have people. Your best friends! Who are they? Why you were STupid enough to let Debra and Analexa, Axel,Scarlet,Curt,Ida and all the other "Wonderful!" Friends that you have! Because you decided to not lock the door but keep it open. So here they are! But guess what! Your not making anyone happy! So you have to let all your "wonderful" friends slowly make it too hard for you where you can't "ever!" Be fixed so you fucking kill yourself. Because your not good enough Alana! Your not good enough for this world! Your not even good enough for Death! Your a stupid little girl who no one loves about or cares for! So listen to all those people who are good enough and worth something. Listen to them and go kill yourself right? That'll make them happy. Then that door will be shut. You will finally good enough. But you'll be friendless. Maybe maybe not. No one wants to save you or else they'd already be trying. Poor little Alana. Just a stupid little girl who no one wants. Just like an old ,beat-up,dirty,smelly,and ugly doll on Christmas. No girl wants it. So it gets sad and cries itself to sleep every night and makes these cuts in its skin. It's already ugly so what would it matter if it got uglier? But look now there are burns and bruises! The this doll finally gets thrown away and everyone(including the doll) is happy.