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I created a list of things I wanted to do with you

Was so excited to finally see you for the first time in years.. first time in my life .

I've done a lot with mom..but some I preserved for you

Was sitting by the couch staring at the door..I heard the doorbell ring and my heart started pounding.. excitement overwhelmed me but I kept the cool.

Mom stood up smiling at me,I knew the look she was giving me(make room for dissapointment ) I nodded in agreement and sat there.

He stood there, he looked different than I enticipated ,my excitement went out the window moment he stepped aside and revealed a girl my age standing behind him,she was pretty,she looked as if she didn't want to be here.

This was suppose to be as father daughter day..with no one included .just the two of us bonding like father and daughter.So who is she?? Why is she here with him..was that his daughter that I've heard about..

I had planned lots of things..was even planning on introducing him to my boyfriend so he could scare him off..I planned..all that I planned literally went out the window.

Tears were starting to form,I blinked them back and stood up, walking straight to them .I kept looking back and forth at both of them,she looked more like him but prettier..

She couldn't be his daughter could she,maybe he's babysitting her but she's so grown up to be babbysat by anyone.

"Hey"I said looking at him,he saw the dissappointment in my eyes.his eyes refused to meet up with mine.

Extending my hand to the girl,"Hey, I'm Hannah short for Ann"I said.I so badly wanted to cry .I hated this girl whoever she may be . my dad left me for her..he raised her and never raised me .he was there for her..he wasn't for me..I hated her for that.

"Hey,Amana "She was nervous I could hear the trembling in her voice,Why did she even bring her here,who is she anyways.

"Dad,who is this, wasn't this suppose to be a father daughter day.. just me and you no one else"?

I stood there waiting for him to give me an answer,he didn't.. he looked everywhere but at me .She was the daughter he left me for,She looks my age.she even looks like her.

"Dad" I started to say,I looked at mom and she had the "I'm sorry" but I told you so

"Baby girl"he said with hands held out to me

I hesitated to walk up to him and hug him,I just looked at this teenage girl next to him ,I couldn't control what I was going through right now..I was fuming..how dare he bring her with him.i wanted him all to my self..call me selfish I don't care..

"Dad,who..who is this?"

"oh, where's..ouk,Hannah this is my daughter Amana and visa versa"the nerve to not even give us a proper introduction..

Tears started forming in my eyes,I tried blinking em back,but I just couldn't,I let them out and cried my way to my room.i could hear my mom calling my name,I couldn't care to look at her or stop to hear what she has to say,I could feel the pity look she was already giving me,I know she told me so but I never listened.i expected dissappointment but nothing like this.i should've listen to her,it was a bad idea to finally decide to meet up with him,but I'm a stubborn ass Human being,I never listen and this time I wish I did . because this pain in my heart is too much to handle right now.

I hear footsteps near my door, whoever this person is.. they're hesitating to come near me,well they better not ..I don't wanna see or talk to anyone right now..my father broke my heart, first person to break.shatter my heart into pieces..I layed there on my bed.. crying.. watching.. waiting for whoever is behind that door to make a move,but I guess they didn't.. because I ended up crying myself to sleep..

I woke up to my mom sitting next to me, giving me a pity smile like I need that right now..I sat upright..she knew what I was about to ask without even opening my mouth.

"They left,Amana is a very nice girl,your father apologises Hannah...I'm sorry the day didn't go as you planned,maybe some other day it will".

I had nothing to say after that..mom got up and left my room,I just sat there lost in my own thoughts. Yes I was dissapointed but that's my father and i should have accepted that, and maybe I should have handled the situation better.

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