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There are just times na may nakakahiya tayong naranasan pero late na nating na-realise. At anong meron dun?!

Regret, humiliation, regret ulit, embarrassment, and a lifetime self-trauma lmao

At walang nagawa ang pagiging kampante ko sa sarili ko ng makita ko ang sarili ko sa salamin.

Yes, am ugly úwù BUT THAT'S NOT THE CASE HERE GAWDDAMMIT!

So uh she was there. She was there, sa kaliwang bahagi ng canteen. And she's literally on my left like, magkalapit lang kami.

Pangiti-ngiti ako, patawa-tawa. Napaka-komportable ko. Yung comfort sa pwesto ko kanina was too much that I didn't noticed shit on me.

It was P.E. and we were already heading up to the 4th floor para magpalit. Pumasok ako ng cr, nagpalit, and when I saw my shirt it's just-

It's just shit. I don't like it at aaaaaall and, I'm shit.

And it was embarrassing kasi nga, she's on my left, with her friends, na nakaharap sakin, and I know she was kinda glancing at me.

It was torture for me. Hanggang ngayon actually.

Kakatapos lang ng 2nd to the last subject namin and I'm just here in the canteen, hanging around with my friends. I want to go home and squeeze myself to a corner and cry because my chest's fucking burning with all these negative emotions I'm feeling.

I feel like not looking her way ever again.

Sigh..

I'm embarrassed for life.