It was christmas morning and i was texting Niall like crazy. He didnt answer any of the texts i sent him, and he didnt answer any of the calls i sent. I bet he didnt even check his answering machine. I stayed up all night thinking "What did i do?" We spent the last night doing things that i could never imagine doing with anybody else. Yes, we "did it". I was crying. My heart was burning. My little sisters were all up calling mum so we could open christmas presents. Dad wasnt here. He left us a note last christmas saying he was going away and never coming back. We came home and all his things were gone. The night before that, him and mum got into a massive fight. She caught him cheating and he insisted she was wrong. So he just got up one morning and left. I had to deal with the rest of my junior year, without a dad. I grew out of it though. I never want to see him again. So as the only man(barely) left in this household, i have to help my sisters out because mums always working. She has a good job, thats how come we have a nice house, and always the nicest presents. I had bought Niall a bracelet to match mine. On the inside of the bracelet it was engraved into a leather the words "Forever and Ever". He had Forever and i had "and ever". I know hes going to like it. I called and called. And he still didnt answer. I confessed to my family i was homosexual a week ago. So they knew about Niall, and Niall confessed to his family. Both families were very understanding. Thats what made us so inseperable. It was 8 o clock in the damn morning and Niall still wouldnt answer his cell phone. Fifteen minutes later the house phone rang, my mum answered it. And all i heard was, "Ahuh, yes, oh no. Hes going to be so heartbroken. Okay, i will tell him. Oh no, i hope youre doing okay. Im so sorry to hear that. Thanks for letting us know. Okay, bye." She put the phone back slowly. I was concerned. "Mum?" "Mum. What is it?" I rushed toward her. She couldnt look at me. I grabbed her shoulders, "Mum? What is it? Tell me. Who was that on the phone." A tear ran down her face and she looked up at me. "Zayn....." I didnt know what was going on. Who was that on the phone? "Zayn. Niall got into an accident this morning at 7 o clock." My heart stopped. The world was turning. Everything was dizzy. It was hard to breathe. Did she- Was he- oh my gosh. "Zayn. His mum said he was on his way to the mall, he forgot to pick up the present he had on hold for you. And while crossing the street to the parking lot, a car was speeding and he was killed instantly" My chest was burning. Hot tears were pouring out if my eyes. I was mad. I was mad at myself. I let this happen, he went to the mall for me. Its all my fault. I ran. I ran down the stairs and out of this house. I ran 10 blocks to the hospital. I was crying and running as fast as i could. It was Christmas, so there wasnt many people on the road. I finally got to the hospital and i didnt stop for a breathe. Mrs.Horan saw me and flagged me down. She told me Niall was in the E.R. They were trying to see if he could make it. I walked in. My face was sore, my eyes were red and puffy, from crying. But that didnt stop me. I kept crying. I saw him. I saw his lifeless body on that hospital bed. I dropped on my knees. And i screamed. Why? Why does this happen to me? What did i do to deserve this? How could you take such an important person from my life? Why? I touched his hand. It was so cold. I grabbed the two bracelets out of my back pocket. I placed "forever" on this right hand. And i placed "and ever" on my left hand. I cried and looked at him. "Forever" the words came out of my mouth. Thats the story of the most tragic thing that has ever happened to me. Niall Horan was my first true love. He gave me such a rush when we were together. He was my everything. Since the day we first met, August 1st , to be exact, to Christmas Day and forever and ever. I loved him. I loved him more than i have loved anybody before. And to know that he is gone forever, hurts me. I still cry ʻtil this day. But i know hes still with me no matter what. I visit the lookout every now and then. I look out and i see two bright blue shining stars. And i know thats him. Hes with me wherever i go. Thats how its supposed to be. Forever and ever.
