i wanted to write down
the moment each of our ends
once again touched
after a long, long time
i wanted to write down
how fast my heart went wild
when you hold me
not close, yet close enough still
i wanted to write down
my guilt of leaving you
for quite a while
i wanted to write down
to know how you felt
and how curious
it drives me now
i wanted to write down
your calmness and how
it turns into my safety
when you are around
i wanted to write down
the feeling of dying
when i drowned
in your eyes
i wanted to write down
how you managed
to save me from death
and how it took
one glance more
i wanted to write it down
i badly wanted to write it down
but the feeling of unknown
and uncertainties are eating
my intestines alive
i am not writing it down
knowing for sure
how unfair it would be
how you should not
want to hear a thing
of my ridiculous
downfall
or maybe
my tough
break.
Valentine's day
