Spinning out: a look into the baker Family

Days with old behaviour

Kat's P.O.V:
I left Dasha and was on the way to look for Justin. I know he probably didn't want to talk with me, after my sister betrayed me....it was a secret what I trusted her. And she just told him it. Nothing more had hurt me, my Mom was already mad! I was done with her. She would never change. She will always stop at someday to take her meds, I wanted Serena to be in safety and that was the thank.
I was on the ring. Maybe he was ice skating, but he wasn't.
„If that's not Kat."
I turned around,  it was my Mom. Really great!
„Do you have no one anymore?"
„Leave me alone." said I mad and crossed my arms.
„He wasn't here Today." I looked at her. Like she knew that I looked for him.
„When you become smart and just come back to me at home? You'll have no one left. Because we never can trust our feelings."
„There is no We. It were never. I at least not forget almost every 3. day to take my meds." - „I do not take money from our together bank account! And give it for other stuff out while I know how hard my daughter has worked for it!"
„Don't be that dramatic, Kat. I bought you so many things with my Money once. So I can expect from you a little support."
I sighed. „That's what you call support? You had let your own daughter got out in the cold to train! She sprained her wrist! You have your episodes in the public mostly and want me to stay out of it, because I have a 'pneumonia'..." 
„I did this to protect you! But if you don't appreciate it....Fine."
„I don't care! And now stop to act like you'd really care! Leave me alone, okay!?" said I mad and left.
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A while later, I was in the Hotel. In front of Justin's room. I knocked and knocked. But no one opened it.
„Fuck..." I sighed.
I remembered something and put a card out of my pocket and tried to open the door, it worked and I went inside. Looked around. I was sad and hurt.
As I suddenly heard steps.
„Kat?" I turned around.
It was Justin, he looked surprised and worried at the same time.
„What are you doing here?"
„Seriously? Why I shall doing here except to talk with you..."
He only looked at me.
„I'm sorry about what Serena said. It was a secret what I trusted her."
„So is it true?" asked he kind of hurt. I nodded weak.
„But-"
„That's why you didn't call me on the next day. Because you never wanted.."
„Now is it different." - „I told you that I fell in love with you. And it's still like that."
It annoyed me that he didn't say anything, and just looked at me with his blue eyes.
„But sure, someone with a bipolar disorder you can't believe any word about what they feel. It was clear that you don't understand it."
He was about to say something, but I was faster:
„You know what, it has no use then. You're right. Also not with the Ice skating."
„Kat-"
„You're right. It was a stupid idea." then I left the hotel room. Went down in the lobby, then in the bathroom. I looked that I was alone and was leaning my arms on the sink. Why should anyone believe me one word? I'm always the idiot for everyone. About my family I don't want to start, and with my friends....I cannot even say If they were really my friends. Jenn insulted me and told me that I'm exactly sick and mad like the rest of my family....she knows that I have the disease and that's not fair.
And now with Justin...it's also over. He'd never skate with me on the Ice anymore, after what Serena told him. He is a Boy and they are all the same.
And Markus was away, in his Ski team. Going to the Olympics. My dream was gone.
I got panic and gave myself the fault. I started to breath heavy unequally loud. Pulled my sleeve up and started to bite me in my left elbow side. I groaned loud because it had hurt so much! Every-time I did it, I tried to Calm down this way again. My teeth were deep inside, it were pains I did to myself.
„Kat, stop!" it was Justin's voice.
He came to me and tried to make me stopping.
„Stop! Hey!"
I did and looked at my arm. I bled again, Justin gave me a cloth to dry it. He was in a way shocked as he has seen what I have done to myself.
„Kat....why you did this?"
I only looked at him. Pulled my sleeve down again and wanted to leave. He touched my wrist.
He saw how mad I was. He had let me go and I walked out.