Diary Ng Taong Walang Magawa Sa Buhay シ

Nov.15.2014

Hi diary ↖(^▽^)↗

Oo alam ko bakit 15 ang nakalagay na date dyan?.. Kasi i just remembered something that happened that day,that was our last day on company and guest what?,andaming nainis at nalungkot some pretended that they're happy because finally we're going to leave. Haha boo them i know they're sad too,why?kasi pinagkukuha nila ang number namin.

Actually i was stricked when it comes of giving my number away,it's like giving my privacy to them. If you don't give me reasonable reason, i won't give my number but when our lastday came it was like im just giving them a crumpled paper a trash?haha oo ganoon pati yung mga hindi humingi ng number ako na ang humingi.  Im so friendly right? *u*

Nagtampo pa yung visor ko sakin haha..

Conversation (me and my supervisor)

M: Sir timmy are you mad?ba't di mo ako pinapansin?. (While pouting)

S: eh kasi naman last day mo na dito di ka man lang manlilibre,manlibre ka naman kahit isang bilaong pansit lang (he said on a serious tone,though i know he was  just kidding )

M: sir hindi ho ako mangingibang bansa or mapo-promote,mawawalan ho ako ng trabaho sir,maghihirap tapos gusto mo sir i-celebrate ko pa?how dare you (i said laughing na ikinatawa din ni sir)

S: ewan ko sayong bata ka puro ka kalokohan (then he walked out)

Hangkyuut ng sir timmy chubby hihi im going to miss him *u*. Then there this other guy also ,Actually mas closed siya kay gie. Lumapit siya sakin and greet i just nod at him and smile..

Conversation between eron and me.

E: ui totoo bang lastday niyo na sabi ni gie?

M: Yep

E: di nga? (Halata kay eron na hindi siya naniniwala or mas magandang sabihin na ayaw niyang maniwala)

M: uhh wait me here,kukunin ko lang yung contract lagi ko naman siyang dala eh. (Agad akong tumakbo papunta sa desk ko then kinuha ko yung papel sa drawer ko. I showed it to him, i actually saw sadness in his eyes. Napalapit na kasi kami ni gie sa kanya specially gie.)

E: Ano ba yan kung kailan napamahal na kayo sakin,samin, tyaka kayo aalis andaya niyo naman(halata na frustrated siya)

M: As if we have a choice.

Tapos nagwalkout na siya after, hanggang sa umuwe kami di na siya nagpakita,maybe nagtatampo or naiinis sa katotohanang di na niya kami makikita.

Mixed emotion ang naramdaman ko nung araw na 'yun masaya na malungkot. Masaya kasi finally makakapagpahinga na ng maaataaagaaal,malungkot kasi we can't go back there anymore.

Hay..

And about neo yeah he's the gay i mean guy na nagsabing gusto niya ako,akalain mong siya rin pala yung lalaking sinasabi ni girlie na interesado sakin. He wants my number pero di ko naibigay,i feel guilty kasi sabi ko bibigay ko,eh si tanga umuwi agad  sabagay di naman niya alam na lastday nanamin. Kaya ayun nagbilin pa ako sa office mate ko since kilala naman niya si neo,na ibigay yung number ko IF EVER hihingiin niya or he's still interested on it.

Pero aaminin ko im still disappointed on him cause his not texting me yet,yep he got my number. Chei (my friend o.m na inutusan ko or binilinan about my number naibigay niya na. Tinanong niya kasi si neo kung gusto nito ang number ko he nods excitedly kwento pa ni chie) pero hanggang ngayon ni ha ni hoo wala nakakafrustrate lang o(╯□╰)o.

Tapos never ko talagang nalaman yung name ni kuyang handshake,i called him kuyang handshake because thats how our first met up started with a handshake. Everytime he sees me,he always offered his hand to me for a handshake aabutin ko yun din antagal niya bago bibitawan yun,i fell inlove i also  assume that maybe he likes me thats why he kept on doing that but i got it all wrong. Sumagi kasi sa isip ko ,paano kung pamilyado na siya?,paano kung friendly lang talaga siya at ASSUMING ako?i felt hurt. Alam mo ba diary sa sobrang obssesed ko sa kanya,pumunta ko sa bulletin board at inisa isang i-search sa fb ang mga pangalang nakalagay doon hinahanap ko talaga siya online pero i failed kaya tinigil ko na masakit eh.

Ah oo nga pala pati yung new guy sa office,also hurt me emotionally. He gave me motives i thought he don't have wife or gf yet cause everytime were together he never told me story about his baby he always told me about his niece. Kung di pa sinabi ni hara (another friend of mine)  na kakapanganak palang ng asawa niya ay patuloy pa rin akong aasa sa wala,hindi naman sa assuming pero feeling ko talaga he liked me too _(_^_)_> lagi siyang asa desk ko eh,halos tumambay na nga siya dun. Kaya nung sinabi ni hara yun,i felt milyon knife stabs on my heart yeah o.a lang ako no?pero it really hurts like hell. Assuming really hurts -_-..

Pero ok na yun nakamoved on na ako shinare ko lang sayo diary para pag gusto kong alalanin yung mga assumera days ko makikita ko to hihi ..

Byieee...

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