The Scars That Remain

Bestie

One Milion Bullets - Sia

The butterflies in my tummy dance to the melody of your memory

Creating ripples in the fabric of my mind, erupting suppressed feelings

Memories that weren't mine to keep, but I, being foolish enough to store them

Buried and locked them away, deep inside my fictitious realm

Many atimes, my mind wonders why my heart clung to your warmth

Was it because of your mannerism or your cute mawkishness?

Maybe it's 'cause of the way you wiped my tears and pulled me to your chest

Or 'cause of how you attacked the okada man who tried to grope my breast

It's probably 'cause of our Friday movie nights when you'd make drinks and I'd get Bounty

And we'd huddle on the couch binge-watching episodes of How To Get Away With Murder

Or could it be 'cause you'd cocoon me with a blanket when I start snoring

Clean up our mess, carry me upstairs then make breakfast in the morning

Honestly my mind can't tell when my heart began to long for you

When I begun to wish and hope to become more than a best friend to you

You understood me perfectly, you saw me for who I was and not who you wanted me to be

That's why my heart couldn't accept those others, 'cause I knew they wouldn't see me for me

For five years, I waited hoping you'd finally be mine, but boy was I wrong

Today, we bought the ring and even tried it on my finger, twas a perfect fit

You went down on one knee and she screamed YES, right in front of me

My eyes stung but I held my tears, I guess we just weren't meant to be

L'amour solitaire est déchirant
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