"Why are you always so sad."
"I barely ever see you smile."
"I'm sure its a site to behold."
"You'll look even more beautiful if you smile more."
These are the things he said to me he stroked my hair and kissed my forehead.
It's funny because honestly at some point in time,I didn't believe that I deserved anything good. And whenever something great happened my heart is so full of joy, I instantly get a depressing feeling after cause I know a disaster was coming my way again.
But what's even more painful is the fact that I was never in a relationship with "him" I was in a toxic relationship with my pain.I let my pain abuse me daily because he fueled my motivation to write;he fueled my morbid creativity.
I was in love with my pain.
So I guess I'm a cheater, but still you stay cause you were so desperate to make me happy: to fix me , to see me smile.
All that's really standing in your way is the huge mountain call TIME.
But you're willing to stay, sit, stand, win...through it all and take it one step at a time just to prove my pain wrong.
- F.A
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PoetryI'm not here to tell you that life is great. Neither am I here to tell that life is a horrible thing. This is all about real life which is a bit of both. Some of us may have an imbalance but that is what makes us all different, unique,and human. I...
