Her

Oh how the time has gone
I'm supposed to be this happy go lucky kid
I've got everything I've ever wanted
Yet I'm still caged
A trapped prisoner with lingering thoughts of how it used to be
I see her smile
And still think of you
I hear her laugh
And it's only serves as a reminder of how happy you used to make me

Ain't it crazy
How the time has gone by
And I still throw myself on the battlefield
Ready to fight your battles
Ready to make sure that you are okay
Am I okay?
Was I ever ready?
Was it ever meant to be?

In my happiness I'm reminded of you
Never settled for a frown
Always ready to put on your crown
Spreading your joy with everyone around you
Well almost everyone
For my fragile heart didn't simply break into two pieces ready to take on the world
It fricken shattered
And when things shatter
It is beyond repair

In my moments of sadness
I'm reminded of how you would not go to sleep
Not go to sleep till I was okay
Ready to listen to my endless vents
Crying out to better myself
You promised to make me better
And yet you watched as I cried for hours on end

Oh how I remember seeing you for the first time
How I told my friends that one day I will call you mine
And how I remember the last day we were together
How I looked into those beautiful brown eyes
And knew it would be the last time I will ever have that
Have that monumental privilege
So thank you
I needed to grow
Now it's time I make her happy.