Shhh! It's a secret...

Chapter 3

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Omw guys I am the worst I haven't updated in like forever....I always get new ideas but I'm just not in the mood to write.
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Emily's pov:
I woke up at 3am after having a nightmare about Demi finding out about my issues.
I couldn't deal with myself if she knew about all of this. She would probably blame herself for not noticing the signs, which really isn't her fault...well I guess, if she spent more time with me when I first started having issues maybe she could have seen and helped.
She has her own life though and I can't expect her to live mine for me...
The voices were taunting me, "why would she blame herself. She doesn't even love you."
A tear appeared on my cheek. It was true I mean who could care about someone like me. I'm a fat, worthless, stupid , pig that everyone hates.
"If u cut we promise you will feel better, if you don't we will taunt you until you do! And while you are at it go purge, we don't care whether u purge up blood but you will do as we say!"
I got out of bed and found my way to the bathroom switch to turn on the light. I locked the door and walked over to the toilet and purged, my throat was burning like hell and all that came up was blood, because my throat was sore I was having a coughing fit.
I got up and fetched my blade. I sat down and made 3 deep cuts on the top of my thighs. I cleaned up and flushed the toilet. Then I unlocked the door, switched off the light and found my way to the bed.
The voices weren't leaving me alone. I was thinking about what would happen if anyone found out. The voices became louder than my thoughts.
"You will do anything to protect our secrets. If anyone finds out you will reject any sort of recovery. No one will like you when you recover as you will be fatter than you are now"
I tried to block them out by rocking back and fourth on my bed
The voices were too loud though. i got a pillow and screamed into it. i then decided to drown the voices out with music, so i got my earphones and put my music on full blast. i fell asleep crying silently.
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Demi's pov:
i woke up to screams coming from across the passage. i got up and ran to where the noise was coming from. when i saw Emily moving frantically in her bed i realised she was having a nightmare.
i got into the bed and put her head on my lap while i combed my fingers through her hair. "Em, wake up, you're okay its just a nightmare."
she jolted up so fast out of breathe, crying.
"its okay, you're safe!" she sighed, "do you want to talk about it?"
"umm...n-no i'm f-fine" she said stuttering.
"you sure? you don't seem too convinced yourself." she just nodded and leaned her head into my neck.
"you hungry?"
"nope"
i looked at her suspiciously
"what! i'm not hungry thats all"
"okay well mom said she has a big announcement to make tonight"
"what about?"
"how am i supposed to know, thats all she told me"
"oh okay, well I hope it's a good one"
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Well sorry that was so suckish, it's just a filler chapter.... Anyways please vote and comment on what you think should happen next. 😊 you never know, you might just see some of your ideas come up 😌❤️ oh and sorry for any editing mistakes its unedited 😕