don't worry (suicidal! Deku x Todoroki)

QandA + Chapter?

Todoroki POV
I sat in the hospital chair waiting for the doctors to tell me the news. They were taking to long! What's going to happen? Is he dead? Did the love of my life fade away from me? "Todoroki?" I looked around meeting eyes with the nurse. "You can come with me." I stood up and followed her.

"So how is he?" I said. " Well he has a lot of scars and cuts along with faded bruises and burn marks. We had to give him a blood transfusion since he lost a lot of blood. He should be sleeping." As she said that, my face darkened. Burn marks huh?

We stopped at his room and she opened the door. I stare at the helpless body in front of me. He had bandages all over his arms, legs, and stomach. His face looked so peaceful though. " Can you tell me any family members I can contact to tell them the information?" "Ummm." I suspected that Midoriya is All Might's secret love child but I'm still not sure."No sorry. I don't any family members." She nodded and walk out.

I sat down on the chair and looked at Midoriya. Bruises everywhere. He looked fragile. Why would he do this. I-I couldn't save him. The person I cared and loved most. Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why? "I'm sorry Izuku! I'm so sorry!" No answer. "I'm sorry I couldn't help you. I sorry I couldn't save you!"

My phone started to ring. I sigh and answered it. "Hello?" "SHOUTOOOO!" I immediately hang up. I don't like talking to that old man right now. My focus was on Midoriya. I went back to Midoriya. He isn't going to wake up for a while. He needs to sleep. I gave him a kiss on the lips and left.

Le time skip

Midoriya POV (past)

After Todoroki left, I sat on the couch. He actually cares about me? No. You know he doesn't care about you. Maybe he actually does Are you freaking stupid. Nobody cares about you. But-Because your alive, people suffer. By dying, everyone will be happy and smile. It'll be better if you just die. You're just useless, stupid Izuku. ...I am just a useless deku aren't I? Yes. Yes you are. Now do it. Repeat. Because I'm alive, people suffer.Good. Just by dying, everyone will be happy and smile. Yes. I walked towards the kitchen. There you go. Grab it. I grabbed the knife like it was my life sorce. You'll bring everyone joy! One cut won't hurt. 

Self harm warning
I went to the bathroom and locked the door. I sat on the toilet seat and unwrapped my bandages. Cuts scattered all over my arm. But there's still space I should fill.  I slid the knife across my arm. Blood spilling out  from it. I smile happily. Maybe another. I cut again and again and again. Blood oozing out again and again and again until. "Huh?" All the spaces were filled. What? No! There has to be more-

Just go over the cuts.

Just go over the cuts? I guess. I find one that I did not to long ago and slid the blade across the cut. Hard." Ugh" It really hurt but it was really refreshing. I did the same thing over and over again. "Agh!" I looked down to see alot of blood and a big gash there. Not deep enough right Izuku? Maybe this could be your chance to die. Todoroki won't care. I smiled again and thrashed the blade on the already big gash. I did this over and over until I see to much blood.

It's not enough though. As I try to bring the knife up, I start feeling light headed. I look forward and everything is blurry. I tried to stand up but falling making a loud thud. A pool of blood covered everywhere. I'm loosing to much blood. "Midoriya!" Is that Todoroki voice? Well it doesn't matter. He will finally be happy. Goodbye Todoroki. Goodbye world. Hello Mom. I'm starting to get tired. Maybe a little sleep will be good... I hope I don't wake up.

A/N: Hey guys look I'm alive! Sorry I haven't been posting for awhile. Just needed a 'break' from somethings. I hope you guys like this chapter. Also Do you want to know more about the authur. Well just comment on this and ask me questions. I look forward to answering. Well have a good day 😄