𝐒𝐔𝐍𝐅𝐋𝐎𝐖𝐄𝐑 𝐒𝟐 || ITZY X TXT FF

Part 3 (break up)

I get inside again to see that everyone is gathered to see Yuna and Beomgyu dance. I awkwardly walk over to Chaeryeong and the others trying to look unbothered. "Are you okay?" Soobin asked and I slowly nod. "Don't lie, we can see right through you." Taehyun said and I just sigh. "I'm okay guys, they are just dancing I mean why would I be bothered because of that?" I said trying to convince them that I really was okay. The music starts and they start to dance. I feel like my heart dropped when I heard people whispering to each other "Yuna and Beomgyu looks so good together.." I know it's wrong for me to get jealous because of this but I can't help it.. at the end of their dance, Yuna kisses Beomgyu on the cheek and that's when I couldn't handle it anymore. I lock eye contact with Beomgyu and I then start to feel a tear falling down my cheek. I then leave the scene and I run outside with Soobin running after me. Beomgyu tries to run after me but he can't because Yuna is holding his arm tightly. I sit down on the grass and I start to cry my eyes out. Soobin slowly walks over to me and without asking any questions, hugs me and tries to calm me down. I just start to cry even harder not being able to stop my tears. What is going on with me? Why do I have to get hurt so easily? I'm usually not someone who cries in a situation like this but I just feel so betrayed and disappointed knowing how beautiful they look together. "Ryujin.." I hear Beomgyu's voice behind me and I turn around to face him. "..Ryujin I-"
"No need to explain.. I know exactly what is going on.." I said trying to smile through the pain. "It's not what it looks like." He said trying to approach me but Soobin steps in. "You promised me that you won't hurt her and now look what you did." He calmly but furiously whispered. "You shut up!" Beomgyu said before trying to push Soobin away but Soobin grabs Beomgyu's collar and that's when I told them to stop fighting. "Please, just stop!" I said while crying and they both look at me concerned. "You know what Beomgyu?" I said before the other guys and Chaeryeong runs outside to see the mess that is happening. "I love you, I really do.. and that's why it hurts me to know that what everyone saying is true. 'Yuna and Beomgyu looks so good together' is what everyone is saying and it hurts me so much to agree with them. I know that you are trying to help her not get embarrassed but please understand that I have feelings as well.. why couldn't you just tell me beforehand?" I let everything that I was thinking about out and trying to sound as calm as possible. Beomgyu grabs my hand and whispers "you know that I only love you.. who cares what other people say?" I then say "I do! I do care Beomgyu! I care about what other people say and it's frustrating me.." Beomgyu looks at me as if he is lost in words and so is everyone else however Soobin looks at us as if he knew everything from the start. He must've felt how uncomfortable Yuna made me feel whenever she would be close to Beomgyu. "Maybe it's best if we just end it here.." I whisper while looking on the floor. "What did you just say?" He asked shocked. Everyone looks at us surprised to what I just said but I look up at Beomgyu and whisper again "I know that you still have feelings for deep inside. Yes, it had been a long time since you guys kissed but feelings doesn't disappear just like that. Especially if they are left untouched.." he shakes his head before a tear runs down his cheek. "Don't do this Ryujin.. you know that I love you more than I love myself.." he said but I just slowly take off his promise ring and places it on the palm of his hand. "I love you too Beomgyu.. please be happy." I was about to walk away until he tried to back hug me so I wouldn't leave him. "Don't do this Ryujin please I'm begging you.." he whispered while crying but Yeonjun and Hueningkai tried to pull him away from me. I then walk away in the streets looking like a mess. Beomgyu's voice screaming for me are still linking in my ears which made me even more emotional. I get home to see my mom in her pajamas asking me what's wrong. "Mom.." I whisper before her mother instinct decided to hug me tightly and I just cry in her arms. Why do I have to be this weak? Is this what love makes you feel like? so weak that you can't hold on to one another any longer? I feel so dumb and disappointed in myself for not keeping my promise with Beomgyu that I would be with him until the very end.. maybe we really weren't meant for each other? I cry myself to sleep and I wake up to a really bad fever. I stayed home for a couple of days trying to get better and to get myself ready to face Beomgyu at the campus. It has now been a good week and I've finally arrived at the university. "Ryujin! Are you feeling better?" Chaeryeong quickly asked me and I give her a nod. "Where are the boys?" I ask confused as to why they aren't with her and she hesitates to tell me. "What is it?" I asked. "Well.. how do I tell you this without making it sound crazy? Uhm.." Chaeryeong starts to think and I give her arm a push before I say "come on, tell me." "Okay! It's Beomgyu.." she said concerned. "What is it with Beomgyu?" I asked again.. "He hasn't been eating for days so he ended up in the hospital and the boys are there to look after him." She said and I felt like my world went slow motion.. I feel mad and upset at myself cause I know that I am the reason why he hasn't been eating.. why he is like this.. I grab Chaeryeong's arm and said "please take me there.." Stupid Ryujin.. First you break up with him and now you want to see him? You really are dumb..