If the World Could Understand

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*Hi, welcome to my story. I am writing this off of a real life experience and I hope to help others by this. Also maybe by writing this it could also help me. Enjoy. :)*

   I have made some horrible decisions these past years. Many I do regret. They all took a great toll on me. I have had bad things happen to me. They affected me deeply. To this day, it all still lingers in my head.
   I have tried to put up walls, I've tried to ignore and avoid that fact that anything had ever happened. But I can't, it's impossible. You see, when something deeply horrible happens to you, you can't just pretend it never happened. Avoiding it just makes it worse. All that pain will build up and soon, it will erupt. I came to a point where I could write down what had happened so I could just realize. It's not my fault. It was never my fault. I blamed myself. Never blame yourself.