.. Finally

and Finally

It's been a year now..

A year full of pain and suffering. I still can't accept the fact that she already left me.. ALONE! Shattered into pieces, longing for her and it hurts like hell. I miss her so much and I still love her that much. My feelings for her never changed as times passes by. My love for grows stronger each day.

Life like this sucks! It gets a little harder everyday. I don't want to eat nor sleep. It's even getting harder to breathe.

I always thought and convince myself that she's just out there with her family on a vacation. Honestly, I'm still waiting for her. I want her back. I just want to be with her.

I'm in my room right now, crying my heart out and begging for another chance. Begging to have her, see her again and to feel her warmth and love again. To hear her voice and see her smile. To touch her face and kiss her lips. To fulfill our dreams and keep our promises. To live and die with her.

I wanna hear her voice saying my name.. The sound of her laugh is music to my ears. Everytime she scolds me and argues with me with all those little things makes me miss her more. If only I was given the chance to talk to her before she left me completely i could have -- NO! It's never gonna be enough.

Even forever's never gonna be enough. I hate my life. I hate living like this. I'm alive but deep inside I'm already dead. Flinx did brought the biggest part of me with her.

" I hope you're happy and satisfied with what you're seeing right now. I know you're there and that you can hear me. Baby, please try to whisper to my ears.. Be the wind for a while. I wanna feel you! I'm begging you! End my suffering."

I stood up and went to my cabinet. I was looking at her things when I saw the notebook that tita gave to me. I sat down my bed and started reading everything that is written in it. All our memories were there. Pictures, letters, even the candy wrappers were pasted on it. It's like a hard copy of our story and of what happened to both of us. As I scan every page of it I can't help but cry. I miss her more.

I miss her badly. I need her and I can't stay like this anymore.

" Give me a sign Flinx. Just one sign! "

Then I laid back in my bed with my hands holding our story, I gently closed my eyes and whispered,

" I always and will always love you.. Happy Anniversary baby! "

Then a gentle wind suddenly entered my room with a familiar scent of someone I've been longing to be with again.

" FINALLY! "

i smiled ..