A Collection Of Stories In My Head

The Ex

Silence. Not just any type, but the soul crushing, bone grinding type.
How did it get to this. How did we get to this.

"I ... rea...lly..." I said stuttering.

I can't do this. I really can't. How do I say it? More importantly, what do I say? How do I even begin?

"You really what, Idara? What do you want?" He replied turning to look at me.
I want you to take me. Right here, right now. No regrets.
But the harshness to his tone set me off a bit. Who does he think he is, huh? Yeah we're no longer together but that doesn't mean he gets to be nasty with me.

"You know what Kevin? I am sick and tired of this attitude. Why are you so childish? I'm really trying my best to get over you but to be honest, I really don't want to lose you. Ok? So don't ask me what I want like you don't know"

"Idara, I really wish I knew what you wanted but as you can see, I wasn't blessed with the ability to read minds. So I'll ask one more time, what do you want?"

Say it Idara, say it but I can't, can I? I've never been one with words. Never been able to express myself by talking, or writing as far as it goes I can only do this through one way. I can show him.

"Quiet as ever, I see." Kevin chuckled as he turned away.

Don't let him go, move Idara! Move! With the little strength in me, I reached out to him, grabbed his arms. Oh, his strong arms. Dragged him back and looked into his eyes. His soft brown eyes.
On instinct, I kissed him. Maybe I can show him. Maybe,  just maybe I can prove to him that I am worthy, that we are worth it.

"Id...ara" Kevin mumbled through my lips.
In response I cupped his face and kissed him deeper. I needed to pass my emotions to him. I needed him to understand.
I felt his hands lay gently on my waist and a finally felt him open up to me. Kevin kissed back. Finally.
As I tried to increase the intensity of the kiss, Kevin's hand moved from my waist but to my dismay he put his wide,  sexy hands on my shoulders pulled me away from him and wiped his mouth.

"I can't do this. What I want is someone who knows how to communicate. I love you but we can't work. I'm sorry." Kevin said with a crocked voice. Turning his back to me he walked away
"Don't go!" I screamed but he didn't hear me.
"Please. Kevin. I need you!"
I tried running to you but I fell on my knees, sobbing heavily.
"Don't go" I said under my breath
"I'll change. I'll do better. I'll be better. Please."
I screamed so loud I heard myself.
"Ah!" I screamed even louder as I woke up.
"It was just a dream" I murmured to myself while wiping away the sweat that had accumulated over my head.
I reached out for my phone and called Kevin.