Ashton's p.o.v
"Mate what is wrong with you? It looks like you just saw your mum died or something," Luke said as I walked into our band practice.
"Something like that," I muttered and sat down across the room.
I didn't want anyone to see me like this. I couldn't hold back my tears as I walked to his house. I wanted to throw shit and break as much as I could to get the pain out.
Something. Anything.
That's when I saw my drum sticks. Something she loved me for and now I know she doesn't even want to see me anymore. They don't matter...
I grabbed them and couldn't control myself. This pain inside my heart stung so much more than the drumsticks being cracked against my skull. They were broken in half now, leaving a bruise on my head as a mark of my hatred towards myself.
"Dude what the fuck is wrong with you!" Calum yelled at me.
"Everything! I hate myself! I'm worthless and all I do is hurt the people I care about!" I screamed back.
I wanted to break more shit to get the anger out, but then I wouldn't have the only thing left that I care about; this band.
"Just calm down and tell us what happened before you destroy my house," Michael said and I took a deep breath.
"Fine. I let out Abby's biggest secret on accident. And now everyone knows about it. I broke her heart. I promised her I would never tell anyone, but her ex best friend made me say it. I-I didn't mean to do it but it's all my fault. Abby will probably never speak to me again. I fucked up. I'm worthless without her. She's all I care about," I cried, I've cried this whole time.
"Man you've seriously dug a grave for yourself. Just remember you will always have this band, you'll always have us. We have some great news for you," Luke told me.
"I know mate, but what could possibly make this situation better?" I asked, without any hope whatsoever.
"We're going on tour," calum replied.
I just sat there, speechless and stolid. So many thoughts were running through my mind.
"Really?" I asked in disbelief.
"Yes. You need to get your crap sorted out, because we can't do this without you," Michael said.
This is it. I can't believe it.
End of Chapter 28
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Skinny Love
Fanfiction(n.) when two people love each other, but are too shy to admit it, yet they show it anyway Ashton and Abby were opposites. They never dared to ruin the reputation of her popularity. But deep down, are they really that different? All he wants is to s...
