Edges of my heart

chapter 20

Chapter 20
                 My family  planned on shopping as we usually do at the beginning of a new year. Tia we are going to Vancouver, be ready in five as he repeated the same to my sister.  I called Lucy to find out when she left as I woke up that morning not seeing her
  
Lucy: hey, I'm so sorry ,wanted calling you.
Me:    No probs, you good
Lucy:  yeah, you
Me:      uhm, see I'm sorry for...
Lucy:  (cuts me in) you don't have too and beside you are a bad genius, I see what Bry's has taught you
Me:    huh
Lucy:   OMG, so sorry
Me:       it's alright, what of your            girlfriend
Lucy:   Don't worry about it, she won't find out if you don't tell
Me:  yeah, I laughed, alright see you in school.
       I knew I was definitely going to tell Malia but didn't know how.
I joined my family in the SUV as my dad drove playing Celine Dione tracks as usual. The last thing I need is hearing any blues, love is fake,no love with the wrong person is pain, Bryan played with the edges of my heart and made a way through, I thought of him every minute, I deleted all the pictures and videos, anything reminding me of him, Ciara noticed my mood and discovered the latest news, she hugged me and told me not to let it distract my shopping mood.
     If you're looking for a break from the snow right here in Canada, Vancouver is your best bet. It's a great place to get away and enjoy world class shopping and dining as well as musuems and entertainment.
     We entered several malls trying to pick everything on our list, I gathered a lot of stuffs I will be needing for school and a small toy house for shara, yes, I'm taking my dog with me to school this time.
              I hate arranging so I locked myself in my room, pretending to be reading while I chat,  gisting Malia all that happened with Bry , told her how I still miss him but I can't go back.
    I try to close my eyes as I remember the first time Bryan and I kissed at the park. I recall the throne competition how he allowed me to win even though no one knows. I also recall telling him I'm a virgin and he saying he knows, due to the fact I told him as Bryan but why was I this dumb,Bry and Bryan are the same, why didn't my brain go there, I never for once heard anyone call him Bryan,it's always Bry this, Bry that and the whole thing got mixed up in my brain.
      I thought of Bryan and  how we made love the first time, how deeply he loved me, I could feel him thrust in and out of me kissing him each time making him hard by the time I touch him.  The thought of him drives me crazy as I felt hurt, trying to convince myself he really loves me but something just keeps telling me to stop deceiving myself. My mum yells my name, tia you have a call, who would call me on the house line, I ran downstairs to the living room where the telephone was, hello , who's this I said immediately, there was silence for a while before I heard a voice
Bryan: Tia ,plss listen to me, I have miss...
Me:    (interrupting) bry I hissed and hunger up .
      My Parents seemed shocked to my expression as  I raised my shoulders in the air,  and made way for the kitchen to bake. I kept mixing different stuffs with the flour hoping it forms something , my mum noticed my mood if recent and asked what's up but I didn't want her to hate Bry , so I told her just a misunderstanding.
              The new year later started well for me after a long argument with my mum on me taking shara. She loves shara too and I know when she is alone most times with Ciara at work,she takes everywhere with her but I'm so sorry mum I have to.  My dad decided to drop me in school as he comes back to prepare for London. Tia! My dad says, where is your car? Gosh how did I think no one would notice, I borrowed Malia, I lied" she has an important event and she really needed my car to go there, she is just  lazy to drive it back to Ottawa.
        We kept each other company during the drive gisting about tales of my school or his days in college.

I stood in front of my room and gave the door a loud knock, Lucy came in a rush and we both embraced each other, hey tia, Stacie waved.  I can't imagine what Lucy and her girlfriend have been up to. I tried arranging lazily, got help from the girls as I grab a novel to read and prepare myself for the new semester.
        Malia and I returned from our lectures, I haven't heard or seen Bryan and I try my best not to go places where I would see him, thank God this is his final semester.  I gave up dancing this semester, wasn't ready for any competition or anything that would make me see him . Did I forget to mention he showed up at my house, is a good thing I wasn't around and Ciara waved  him off.
     A knock came on the door, I stood tiredless from the bed where Malia and I laid, I wasn't ready to see him not now, tia please hear me out, he said with one knees on the floor.  Five minutes, Malia wanted leaving ,told her to stay, won't take long. Bryan made excuses if how he wanted to tell me several times but he was scared and how he felt when I rejected his letters and flowers sent through Scott. He said he knows I hate him but I should forgive him.
     Tia, I also need to tell you this, I'm sorry I lied but my conscience won't allow me, I'm part of zip guys, Malia heard it and jumps up, wait ,are you ballister, I knew it but wasn't sure, how do you know he is ballister, that's his middle name I say to Malia, he is the lease of zip gang. My jaw dropped, I was speechless , I gathered my shit together and pretended so we'll like I already knew, Bry i forgive you but I've already made it clear to you the last time I'm done with you, can you leave, as I open the door standing at the doorway , his face was down,as he said I'm sorry tia as he left. I slammed the door and squat to cry as Malia rushed  to console me, can't believe I was in a relationship with a  leader of a cultist gang even after telling him , he still lied.

XXX would tia move on or not, how does it feel to be heartbroken, guys comment what you think about this chapter.