Untamed Love

CHAPTER 9 - The Turmoil

Sanem wandered for a while after she left Ayhan's house. Images of Can's perfect body kept on popping in her head every time she did so much as blinking her eyes. She was growing all the more agitated as time passed instead of calming down. At some point, she reached the Old Tree standing in the middle of town and started pacing back and forth in front of it. It owned herself a few odd looks from people passing by yet she wasn't aware of this as she kept on talking to herself in a hushed tone.

"What will I do now?"

"You'll see him tomorrow."

"I can't just go there like nothing happened!"

"Well... Technically, nothing happened. He didn't even see you."

"That's worse! He'll think I'm a creep!"

"I doubt it."

"How will I even look at him in the eyes?"

"You won't."

"Hadi ya! Neden?"

"Because you can't see him and he can't see you remember?"

"Oh... Right." Sanem stopped pacing for a few seconds, thinking. "Then it's a dead-end. He needs to leave soon or he might be discovered."

"Be serious. You don't want him to leave."

"He has to! I don't get to decide."

"The fact that he "has to" doesn't mean you want him to."

"Biliyorum ama! You are not helping! This conversation is going nowhere."

"It's not my fault. I am just the voice in your head."

"That's it. I'm becoming crazy. Anladım..."

"Sanem?"

Sanem stopped pacing and turned her head toward the person who had called her name. It was Osman and he was walking towards her with a raised eyebrow. Sanem gulped silently.

"Osman."

"Sanem. Napıyorsun? Are you alright?"

"Iyiyim. Iyiyim. Neden?"

"Well... You have been pacing up and down talking to yourself for a while. People are watching you strangely."

Sanem looked at her surroundings and saw that people were indeed staring at them and chatting amongst themselves. She knew this town liked to gossip and that she was one of their favourite topics to discuss about but this time it just made her mad.

"NE! Don't you have places to be, or things to do? Oh my God! Stop staring!" Sanem shouted at a couple of people standing near them. They threw her a disapproving look before they finally took their leave, just as Osman was holding Sanem's arm preventing her to go after them.

"Sanem! What is wrong with you?"

"Nothing is wrong with me Osman! These people don't know how to MIND THEIR OWN BUSINESS!" She shouted the end of her sentence at a few more people still lingering around.

"Tamam. Calm down. It's late already. Let me take you home."

"Yok Osman. Gelmeyeceğim. I can't come. I can't go home now. I'm too mad at myself."

"Gerçekten anlamıyorum seni. I really don't understand you."

"Then don't. It's nothing for you to worry about. You go. Don't worry. I can take care of myself."