It was Wednesday when Minho met Felix's best friend Hyunjin. It was the first time that Minho felt normal again although he had no real memory of what normal was, they went together to collect their monthly allowance. The law stated that those who had had their memory wiped were not fit to work until they had been out of the rehabilitation centre for 6 months and Minho was sure that he would go stir crazy in that time.
"What am I even supposed to use this for?" Minho complained.
"I use half of it for myself and save half of it for flights just in case," Hyunjin explained.
"I use mine to keep my hair blonde," Felix joked and Hyunjin just rolled his eyes.
"What he meant to say is that every Wednesday we go out for ice cream and that he spends a lot of his money on getting some wild sundae every week," Hyunjin commented and Minho just laughed in response.
"Hey sundaes are really good though,' Felix frowned and pouted jokingly to which Hyunjin simply pushed him making the youngest stumble forward, "if you injure me I'll sue you for your entire allowance," he warned.
"You wouldn't dare, you forget that I was a law student but to be honest I also forgot that I was a law student," Hyunjin pointed out and Felix fell into a fit of giggles. Minho felt that he didn't quite know how to respond to Hyunjin's joke because on one hand he found it completely hilarious but he didn't know whether having his mind wiped was a taboo subject that shouldn't really be joked about.
Sensing this, Hyunjin turned to the oldest, "sorry if I made you uncomfortable with that joke, I think most people just think that the best way to deal with things is to make fun of them," he smiled sweetly and Minho just shook his head.
"No, no, I found it funny I just didn't know whether I was supposed to find it funny or not,' he explained and Hyunjin nodded in understanding.
"Oh I get that but don't worry, you should always feel free to laugh at my expense, Felix does it enough and besides, you're kind of stuck with us now," he smiled.
They walked in a comfortable silence then, Minho followed them down streets that he wasn't sure whether he was supposed to recognise or not. It all felt so unfamiliar and Minho started to wonder whether he had ever even been here in his old life. When they finally reached the ice cream shop, they slid into a booth and Minho looked at the menu, the serum worked in strange ways and was only supposed to remove memories and not life skills but one of the side effects was forgetting flavours of foods so when the waitress came to order, Minho found himself looking to Felix and Hyunjin for help.
"Oh, he'll have the Sunday strawberry sundae," Felix smiled and Minho flashed him an appreciative smile missing the way the waitress rolled her eyes. Apparently though, Felix and Hyunjin saw it.
"I hate people who think they're better than us because of this," Hyunjin started taking exasperatedly, "they act like I asked to have my memories wiped and my entire life taken away from me," he ranted and Minho furrowed his brow slightly.
"Do people think it's a bad thing?" He asked.
"There aren't many people outside of the LGBT community who know the truth and those who aren't LGBT but do know the truth, and even those who are, are way too afraid to ever say anything in case they're taken too, the laws in this country are literally just enforced by making the population feel terrified," Felix explained, "a lot of people just see us as low lives who's memories were wiped because we were delinquents or whatever and needed a fresh start."
"That's horrible," Minho let out his opinion, "you can't even protest or anything because then they'll know who you are and then not enough people know the truth for there to be public outcry about it and I'm guessing that probably not enough people care," he said dejectedly and Felix and Hyunjin just nodded in agreement.
A new waiter brought their ice cream just afterwards and Minho was excited to find out that vanilla ice cream and strawberries actually tasted really nice. He quickly ate his food and Felix and Hyunjin watched his fondly as they remembered their own experience of re-experiencing ice cream for the first time. Although he was older, Minho could tell that Felix felt as he if needed to guide and protect Minho and the older boy was most definitely thankful that he had someone like Felix around who had been in the same position and felt the same emotions.
After leaving the ice cream parlour, Felix and Minho bid goodbye to Hyunjin who caught the bus home and they headed back on the short walk to their house. They walked in comfortable silence and Minho took in everything he could about his surroundings, the blue of the sky, the faded brown of the tree leaves that fell and crunches under his feet. "Felix, what's the date?" Minho asked.
"September 14th why?" He spoke and Minho's heart immediately began to race.
"Why do I feel like I'm missing something?" Minho was officially confused. As soon as Felix had spoken, his head had felt like it was warning him of something important that he felt like he was missing or leaving behind.
"Maybe you are," Felix commented and Minho racked all of his brain for anything that could link but he found nothing. It was now that it all began to hit him, the fact that he had been ripped from someone who loved him and the fact that they had had his love ripped from them. What if he never found him? What if the boy who Minho loved was blissfully unaware of what had truly happened and MInho would be left to suffer until his dying breath. Chan had said that Unite's success rate was very low and Minho couldn't help but feel his heart sink.
Upon seeing how his demeanour had changed, Felix raced to his side and they sat down together on a patch of grass on the side of the road. "Hyung, what is it? What's wrong?"
Minho took a deep breath before he attempted to reply, "there,' he breathed again, "there is a boy out there who loved me," he spoke and Felix's expression turned to one of pity and understanding, "and he might never know that I'm even looking for him and I don't even know who he is, I can't remember anything about him but I love him or maybe the idea of him, I don't even know, I've been pulled away from everything, I probably had a family that loved me as well and who miss me and miss him and I can't deal with it Felix I can't," Minho spoke without breathing as sobs began to erupt from his throat and he couldn't breathe. Every word of panic was stuck in his throat and he wheezed as he tried to push them out but they stuck there like a pest that was intent on ruining him.
"Hyung listen to me, you've remembered so much, Chan hyung spoke to me about how rare it is to remember so many things or anything at all at this stage, he once told me that as long as you loved this boy truly then you are destined to find him and the stronger the love the more and faster you remember apparently so your odds are looking really good hyung, we'll find them don't worry," the younger spoke.
"You're so young Felix and you've already been through so much, I hope you find him, you really deserve all of the happiness in the world," Minho spoke honestly. Felix smiled a now watery smile and he pulled Minho into a hug.
"I hope you find him too hyung, you're the best person I could've wished to have as my brother," he said and Minho smiled upon noticing the lack of the word fake.
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Fanfiction"It has been said that true love can trick the serum, if you really have true love, you will find each other again." Or In a country where being gay is punishable by having your memory wiped, Minho finds out that the only way to keep Jisung is to lo...
