Suicide Note

ChApTEr 5: NoT a CHaPTeR jUSt A oNEShoT

A little oneshot before chapter 5 comes out UwU

I deleted original Chapter 5 because I didn't like it. I dunno why I told you this but I did...
Anyways enjoy!!!

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Jameson's POV

   I headed home to my house. Jaiden lived with me since she's my girlfriend. I allowed her to stay because I love her a lot. Well loved. And she was my girlfriend
   I came home earlier than expected to surprise her. And long story short, I caught her cheating on me with a guy. She called him Tim. Then I ended it. I was planning on proposing to her, too.
  
Adam's POV

   Tim left to go somewhere. He left so suddenly which, didn't help to calm my anxiety. He rushed out the door and, to my surprise, he left his phone. Lately, he's been hiding it from me.
   I turned that thing on and I see a notification from a person named Jaiden. He just had to put hearts right next to their name. I couldn't believe it. My boyfriend is cheating on me without a doubt.

*A few days later*

   I talked to Tim and gave him the old "we need to talk" text. After a bunch of arguing, we ended it. I was falling out of love with him anyway and I'm sure he felt the same. But, for some reason, I still feel horrible about it.
   I can't shake the feeling of not being enough for someone. Would he have stayed if I was better? If I was enough for him? If I had better looks?
   Also, there's this person that I keep bumping into. Wherever I go, he seems to be there. It's creepy and weird. Now, I'm getting groceries and he's at the other end of the aisle I'm in.
   I should say hello. Otherwise, who knows what will happen if I don't confront him? I could get kidnapped!
   I walk over to him and say, "Hey. I've noticed we've been in the same places a lot recently. I just wanted to say hello." He looks at me with adorable brown eyes. For some reason, I feel like something magical is about to happen.

James's POV

   "Hey. I've noticed we've been in the same places a lot recently. I just wanted to say hello." The person that I keep seeing everywhere, says.
    "Oh. Yeah I've noticed, too. I'm definitely not following you or anything. That'd be creepy." I say that last part like it's not the most obvious thing in the world. The thing is, I'm bad at talking to people. I don't even know how I asked out Jaiden!
   He laughs. Why do I feel proud of making him laugh? This is so strange. "Wanna go eat somewhere? I'm hungry and I want to get to know you." He says. "Y-yeah s-sure."
   Before I know it, we become best friends and my feelings grow stronger for him. We both have YouTube channels so we can travel to Vidcon and Pax conventions  together. That gives me an excuse to spend more time with him.
   I'm almost over Jaiden. Even though it's only been a few days, it seems like Adam is all I need. He makes me so happy and he makes me laugh. But, sometimes we see Tim, his ex-boyfriend and Jaiden, my ex-girlfriend.
   They also have YouTube channels so they also go to conventions that we go to. They look so happy together. Like our relationship never happened. But I don't really care. As long as I'm friends with Adam.

Adam's POV

   It still hurts. The pain of not being able to be enough for someone. It still haunts me. I want to ask out James but am I enough?
   "Hey Adam. You okay?" James asks. He looks at me with eyes that show concern. "Yeah Jameson I'm fine." I say. He smiles at the nickname I gave him. Jameson is something that I call him.
   "James can I ask you something?" He looks over at me again. "Sure. Ask away." I gulp and prepare for the consequensces. "W-will you g-go out w-with m-me?"
   He looks surprised but him expression changes to a softer one. "Sure. Will you be my boyfriend?" He asks. I blush and say, "Sure why not?" I hope I'll be enough for Jameson.