Divergent high

Chapter 5

Tris pov

"Mom" I whisper knocking on my mom's home office door. It's late at night and my mom is up working. This is normal for her.

"I'm kind of busy right now tris" she says and I walk into her office and close the door behind me.

"I need to talk to you" I say shakily

"What is it" she says annoyed, letting her fingers stop typing on her keyboard

She sees the sad look on my face and shuts her laptop. She comes to my side and holds my hands.

"I'm sorry, I'm just behind on work, but what is going on? You can talk to me" she says gently

"I did something I regret" I say looking down at my hands

"Okay and that thing was" she asks concerned

"I got an abortion a few months ago" I whisper looking up at her

Her eyes go wide and she has a frown but she quickly bends down to get to my seated level.

"So you got an abortion" she says gently

"Was it Tobias's baby" she asks and I nod, beginning to cry

"It was such a impulse decision and I didn't know what to do, but now I wish I could go back. I wish I could have waited for sex" I say and she wipes my tears and hugs me

"I'm sorry you had to make that decision but next time don't be afraid to talk to me. I will always be here for you no matter what" She says and I lay my head on her shoulder.

"I'm so sorry mom. I wish I could change everything" I say beginning to cry more.

I'm breaking down. I'm depressed. The thought of the abortion circles my mind. When I'm with Tobias things are nice but that thought never leaves my mind.

"What can I do to help" she asks me

"I don't know" I whisper

"Do you want me to call Tobias. I will allow him to spend the night" she says and I nod

"Okay" I whisper

"But sweetie, I think it would be best if I set you up with a counselor" my mom suggests and I stare blankly at her

"I don't think that's necessary" I say and she holds my hands

"It would make me feel better if you did" she says and I give her a hug

"Okay" I whisper

"Sometimes we make bad decisions. There's nothing we can do about it now, just learn from them" my mom adds and we pull away from our hug

"I'm not trying to get in your business but are you and Tobias still having sex" she asks and I look down at my hands and nod.

"Are you using condoms? Are you on birth control" she asks and I nod

"If you ever find yourself pregnant again please talk to me tris. I'm here for you" she says

"Thanks mom" I say and she kisses my head.

"I love you so much" she says almost in tears

"I love you too" I say

"Now call Tobias. Tell him he's allowed to sleepover. I know he makes you better" she says and I run out of her office to let her work.
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"I think your mom made a good point about going to a counselor? I think that would help you a lot" Tobias says running a hand up and down my body as we lay in each other's arms on my bed

I'm telling him about what happened with my mom and I earlier and he's being so supportive.

"Would you want to come too? We could go together. I know you're being strong for the both of us but maybe this will help you too" I say looking up at him

"I love you" he whispers to me

"I love you too" I say and he leans down and kisses me.

I hold a hand to his face as we kiss each other back and forth. His lips travel down my neck and suck at my favorite spot on my collarbone.

I sigh at how good that feels and he takes that as a sigh to get on top of me.

"No sex tonight" I whisper, breaking our kiss and he kisses my head and hopping off of me.

"I'm sorry" he says holding me close

"Don't apologize. I should be the one apologizing" I say and he lifts my face to his.

"Never apologize for not wanting to have sex. Our relationship can last without it" he says and I hug him

"I love you so much" I whisper

"I love you too" he says kissing my head