PHILEO | Shirbert

Five ~ I'm Losing My Mind

Three weeks later...

Gilbert had not talked to Anne during this time – not about the 'I would've kissed you' thing at least-, they would talk from time to time but he never said what he really wanted to say. Anne completely misunderstood what he said – how could she not, he explained terribly- he did not mean that, what he meant to tell Anne was that he would have kissed her during a game of spin the bottle but he should not have said it to her because she clearly seemed uncomfortable after he said it.

"I have to talk to her," Gilbert said pacing in his room "I'm doing it today. I have to, I can't wait any longer. We've been weird around each other since what I said outside the schoolhouse. We can't keep going like this, I miss her. I mean, I know we still talk, but it's not the same, you know what I mean right?" he said "Oh god, I'm losing my mind" he sat on his bed, next to baby Delly "I'm talking to a baby, asking her for advice" he grabbed her and put her on his lap "you don't even understand what I'm saying. I have to talk to Anne, quickly. Before I lose my mind completely"

"Anne! Anne!" Delphine mumbled, clapping.

"Yes, baby. Anne" Gilbert grabbed her and went downstairs.

"Oh, look who's coming with uncle Gilby!" Bash said doing a baby-voice "The most beautiful baby ever! My Delphine!" Gilbert laughed and gave him the baby.

"I have to go"

"This early?" Bash said, "Where are you going?"

"To school. I just wanted to get there a little earlier so I can talk with Ms. Stacy" he lied.

"Alright. Say 'bye, bye' to uncle Gilby, Delly!" Bash said moving Delphine's hand to wave at Gilbert, and he approached his niece and gave her a kiss on the head.

"Bye, Delly" Gilbert said, going out the door. "Ok, you got this, Blythe. It's just Anne, you have nothing to worry about. Oh god, what if she hits me again" he touched the spot where she had hit him last time "No! she won't hit you because you're going to say just the right thing" he said to himself.

At the schoolhouse, Anne had come early; she had started coming early these few weeks so that she would not bump into Gilbert on the way. She did not want to be alone with Gilbert, he would talk to her and at some point in the conversation he would start staring at her –as usual- Anne knew she could not resist Gilbert's stare, it was like he was seeing through her soul. Every time Gilbert looked at her like that she melts, her legs turn to jelly and the urge to kiss him is unbearable. His stare did not use to bother her, but since that 'I would've kissed you thing' she felt different about him. She was really disappointed when he said he should not have told her that, she did not believe it was true when he first told her he would have kissed her, but a small part of her hoped he did wanted to.

Anne was sitting in her usual place reading Jane Eyre, her favorite book. She was so distracted by her book that she did not notice the tall, curly-haired boy coming through the door.

"Good morning, Anne" his words snapped her out of her trance but she did not move her eyes from the book, nervous to turn around.

'Oh no, It's him. Where is Ms. Stacy?! I don't see her, she must be in her office' Anne thought. Gilbert cleared her throat to make her see him, he thought she had not heard him –oh, she did alright-.

"Oh, Gil!" she said 'GIL? What am I thinking?' she thought "Gilbert!" she corrected "Good morning!" Gilbert smiled.

'She called me Gil! She's so cute! How come I don't have a nickname for her? I need to think of one, I can't call her Carrots again' he thought.

'He's doing it again, oh no" Anne thought.

Gilbert was staring at her.

"Anne, I wanted to-"

"Good morning, children!" Ms. Stacy walked in "You two are here early" she said cheerfully "How are you?"

"Good" both of them said in unison, which shook Ms. Stacy a little.

"Good morning, Ms. Stacy!" Ruby Gillis entered "Good morning, Anne, Gilbert"

"Good morning" they responded in unison –again.

Ruby had forgiven Anne for what she had said –and done- they continued to be friends like nothing had ever happened. Even though Ruby was starting to believe Gilbert, like Anne said, did not like her in a romantic way –took her long enough- she still had a crush on him; it's not like she could forget about her seven-year-long crush on Gilbert. She was seeing how he looked at Anne, and realized that's how she wanted him to look at her, but he wouldn't, and she could not make him either because her friend, Anne, was starting to look back at him the same way; Ruby could not ruin this for Anne, Gilbert clearly liked her and she liked him back. She decided she would help in any way she could and pair them up; it was time for them to be together, enough of this 'slow-burn' shit.