Little Things I Love About You. (Sammy Wilk/ Cam Dallas Fanfic)

Chapter 22- Empty

Nastasia's P.O.V

I saw Tracy crying and I walk over to her and ask her "What's wrong?"

She looks at me "It's maybe coming back."

I hold her hand and help her up.

"Don't worry, she'll be fine. She made it once, so she will get through this again." I hug her and we walk to the limousine. Before we get in she wipes her tears away and puts a fake smile on.

Obviously AJ, Tanisha, Mary and Liam ask "Are you okay?" and she nods "Yeah totally fine."

Again this fake smile, I hold her hand and Jack  my other one.

Cameron's P.O.V

I get in the limousine. I take a seat and look through the window Tracy sits down and starts to cry.

When I saw her cry my heart skipped a beat and I was automatically sad too.

I tried to get out of the limousine to cheer her up and ask what's wrong but Nastasia was there first.

Liam tries to whisper so we can't hear it "Are you okay?" she nods and gives him a smile.

-at the hotel-
Tracy's P.O.V

I mumble "I'm in the shower." and take my pyjama and underwear.

Turning on the water I step in.

The water is ice cold but it's not bothering me. I don't feel anything right now, you could stab a knife in my back and I wouldn't feel it.

I feel, empty.

Nothing else just empty.

Why? Simple answer, my mum had cancer two years ago.

She won the fight and we were happy, the doctors said there's a minimal chance she could get it again but look what happened.

"Tracy are you okay?"

AJ interrupted my thoughts and I say "Yeah just taking a long shower."

He sighs really loud and I can hear it through the door "You're in there for almost 25 minutes. Don't lie to me"

Finally I really start to shower and try not to stand around.

I didn't realize that I was crying, I was ready to sleep and I turned the water off.

I grab my towel and change.

Slowly with no emotions I walk to the mirror and look at myself. I forgot to wash my face, so I wash it and brush my teeth. I open the door and walk to my bed.

AJ is on his phone and shirtless, he's just wearing his sweatpants. How typical.

I crawl under the blanket and check my cracked phone.

Two massages from Cameron.

Some new notification from Instagram and Twitter.

Of course I read the messages first.

Cameron : hey

Cameron : are you ok? Sorry if I'm getting on your nerves but I saw you crying. I' can be your shoulder to lean on if you need me.

How cute, he made me smile a little.

Me: No I'm fine, but thanks and good night

I go on twitter and follow some fans back.

Cameron : Kk goodnight

-next morning-

I stretch myself and look at my phone, I decide to buy the ticket for the flight.

Like a ninja, I open my suitcase and change. Because I feel like an emo I wear black ripped jeans, black Vans, a black shirt and a leather jacket.

I'm too lazy for anything so I left my make up bag in my suitcase. My whole body is still Kind of empty and I don't feel hungry at all so I'm just going to Starbucks to get a hot chocolate.

Quiet as possible I close the door behind me and my phone rings, it's dad.

"Hello dad. Heard anything?"

He clears his throat "Uhm honey I think it would be better if you come home to visit us."

I get nervous "Okay, can you give me mum for a sec?"

"Of course honey."

I can hear my mum "Hi darling how are you and how is the tour going so far?"

My voice is so shaky "Mu-um... How bad is it?"