You have nothing, but you have my love

Changes: Ban Ryu

"What the hell is wrong with the world?"

I woke up to the sound of a scream: a woman's scream. I didn't mind it since at home the only women we had were the cooks and they werent really that important....... But I'm not at home! that's soo yun! I opened my eyes so fast my vision got extremely blurry, i couldn't really see Soo Ho standing at the door until I got up and bumped into him. That was when I realized I was the last awake again. 

"Why is Soo Yun screaming? And why are you in the middle of the door?!" I asked Soo Ho whilst half asleep and trying to wake up. 

"Idiot! There are more important things, Yeo Wool is dead." Soo ho said with the coldest and harshest tone ever. I don't think I've ever heard his voice without that annoying yet soft tone which was almost a melody.

"The hell?? Where'd that come from? Who is such a coward to kill someone while they're sleeping?!" funnily enough, I had woken up my father to kill him the night before. King of hypocrite from my part but hey, one was innocent and the other one was a monster.

"He was't killed, he killed himself." Surprisingly, Soo Ho's tone was breaking with every word he said. Kudos to him for being so strong.

While I went to see Yeo Wool's body closer, I noticed Soo Yun was kneeling on the floor in front of Yeo Wool's body, holding a piece of paper while crying. For some strange reason, I wasn't crying even though he was my brother and technically all the family I had left. I felt nothing though, as if I was simply reading a story and those weren't real people, but they were. He was my brother. Hansung was my friend. I kneeled besides her and asked if i could see the note, to which she agreed and gave me the paper.

"This week.. was something

I still can't believe what happened

And I won't

I will never accept what this cruel world did

They told me to follow my dreams

And I'm going to follow the only thing that makes me able to dream

-Yeo Wool"

"I guess this was because of Hansung. I don't get why he would kill himself over him though, its not like they were a couple; that would be shocking, but completely unrealistic." I said with a slight chuckle, trying to liven up the mood, but no one laughed along. Soo Ho looked at me with such a disappointment, it was written all over his face. Were they lovers? I really started to doubt myself. They did seem pretty close, but then Yeo Wool flirted with anyone. 

"I really can't take this anymore... Things just get worse everytime..." Soo Yun said while choking on her own tears, trying not to let them come out, but it was evident she would breakdown at anytime. I went to hug her since I didn't know what to say. You're really stupid Ban Ryu, can't show any feelings even though your brother just died and your lover is breaking down in front of you. Pathetic. 

"Shut up! Who the hell said that?!" I shouted out while pushing Soo Yun away and getting up, looking around the room then over to Soo Ho. "Did you say that?!" I couldn't have been angrier. At least it was a feeling. The first one of the day.

"Calm down Ban Ryu, no one said anything at all. Are you going crazy?" Am I? No, I am completely sane and in my right head-space. It was just my conscience saying what I was thinking. Does everyone have one though?

"We should bury him, give him a good farerwell" Soo Ho said and Soo Yun nodded. I felt like we were rushing things, but the sooner we bury them, the easier the grieve will leave. of course they'll still be remembered but we can't hold on to it for so long. Who knows how much damage it would do? Pathetic.