I'm Not Okay and That's Not Alright (Jeff the Killer x Ben Drowned)

Chapter 1

•Bens Pov•

"Jeff knock it off would you! I'm trying to watch T.V!"

Jeff chuckled and kept poking me and I continued to smack his hand away. I hated when Jeff got really hyper and annoying like this. We sat on the couch for a half an hour and still he hasn't calmed down. I don't even know what makes him like this. Plus, it made it more annoying since I was in a horrible mood lately. I really can't stop being so down on myself. So being with the hyper and happy Jeff has really bummed me out more lately. Seeing someone so happy and then me being so upset is really depressing for me to comprehend. It's ever since that day...That day where I saw Jeff and Jane.

•Jeff's POV•

whack!

I chuckled at every time he hit my hand. It didn't hurt and he knew it, but it's interesting to see him try to make it hurt. Ben has been so boring. All he has been doing is sleeping or watching T.V he doesn't want to come out and come killing with me anymore. He just wants to stay in the mansion with all the others. He hasn't been the same, and it's really bothering me. I tried poking him for 30 minutes and he won't laugh or even smile. Just frown. I kept on poking him and he stood up turning off the T.V and going upstairs.

"Ben! C'mon man I was just playing around!"

He disappeared up the stairs and I sighed. I heard footsteps behind me and looked. It was Masky.

"Hey Jeff!"

I sighed, my upbeat mood fading from my body.

"Hey Masky."

"Woah dude, you alright? Your face just lost all expression."

I looked away from him knowing that he already had noticed.

"Yeah, I guess I'm just really tired. I was up late last night killing."

"Alright Man. But if anything is up, i'm here okay?"

He placed a hand on my shoulder and I nodded. He left with leaving a small pat on my shoulder. I really didn't understand why Ben would act like this. My curiosity was getting the best of me and it was getting me furious that, being Ben's best friend, he would tell me what's going on. I need to know. Now.

•Ben's POV•

I stormed upstairs with Jeff yelling after me, but I didn't even pay attention. I had gotten in my room and locked the door turning around, hesitating for a moment, then running to my bed and started to sob. I couldn't comprehend my feelings anymore. My mind was full of deep thoughts and it felt like I was living a hell. It felt like I was drowing. Again. The tears continued to flow and i tried to catch my breath having a small hiccup here and there.
Why would he do this to me!
I don't understand!
I want to be okay!
Why did I have to go outside!
I hate the memory..
Of that day!
..That Day.

I looked up out the small window that showed the small garden that Slendy and Sally tried to grow, and the woods. There right next to the garden was a decorative outside bench that I saw Jeff and Jane. Where I saw them kiss. Where I saw them lean closer and closer till there pale lips connected. It's the worst memory that I've had. Worst then the drowning, worst then my childhood. I wanted everything to disappear and I wanted myself to disappear. Forever this time. He didn't even care when he saw me run back inside. He just shrugged like I was okay. But I wasn't. and for Jane, I guess she cared alittle but I really didn't see her reaction. I was more focused on Jeff.

I stopped looking outside the window and sat on my bed curling my knees up to my face and closing my eyes shut tight as I held back more tears. I sniffed lightly letting a tear slid down my cheek. That's when I heard to knocks at my door.

"Jeff go a-away! I w-want to b-b-be a-alone!"

I said looking at the door hiccuping between words.

"Ben..It's me Jane. Can we talk?"

I went blank. Maybe Jane was really concerned. Maybe see knew about my feelings for him?

•Jeff's POV•

The day went on and not quickly I should add. It dragged on and on. It finally hit me that a day without laughing and joking with Ben really just seemed dead. I couldn't take this anymore I had to do something. I got up and went to the dining room where Eyeless Jack, Masky, and Hoodie were sitting and just talking about something that really didn't interest me but what else did I have to do. As I sat down, they all exchanged a look at each other as if I was some outcast. I looked confused. Do I still look emotionaless?
"You guys okay?" I asked exchanging a look back with them.

"Yeah, You just seem different. I feel like something's on your mind" Eyeless Jack replied and they all nodded in agreement. I knew it, even though Masky already knew about it. Or did he say something? That earlier I didn't look right. I sighed and gave a slight shrug. They all just sat and stared at me waiting for me to confess that something was on my mind. Especially Masky since he sorta suspected something from earlier this afternoon. I guess it would be better to talk about it then keeping it all inside since keeping it inside has been driving me insane.

"It's just been Ben lately. He seems so..sad..and he dosen't go killing with me anymore. He just stays in his room, sleeping, or downstairs in the living room watching T.V. He dosen't even wanna talk to me half the time. I don't know what's gotten in to him lately. I just want the old Ben back."

They all looked at each other and nodded. I was thrown off by their reaction. It's like they already knew that was my problem. 

"We've noticed that Ben has been acting different, too. He dosen't like playing Video Games with me anymore now, while before almost every day he came begging me to play." Eyeless Jack pointed out.

"Yeah, and everytime I talk to him and try to have a conversation, it results into small talk." Masky added on. I was shocked. Everyone was noticing Ben's behavior and he has been acting different with everyone. Being that it's Ben he usually only gets mad at one person, meaning he only acts different with the one he is upset with and thn he is normal with everyone else  but it's completely different this time. Whatever upset him was really affecting him. I didnt't want him to be this sad.

"What should I do guys? I'm his best friend and I wanna help him but I just..Don't know how." They sat there for a moment then replied.

"Smartest thing to do is just sit down and talk with him, I don't think there is much else you can do." Hoodie suggested.

"Have you tried cheering him up?" EJ asked and I nodded.

"Normally?"  I shook my head and he sighed.

"Yep, only hope is you go and talk to him." They nodded in agreement. This was gonna be hard, I really didn't know how to "talk" about things to see what was wrong or on someone's mind. We all changed the topic and soon they left for their room's. I looked at the clock. 9:00 pm.  Curfew was In 2 hours but I deicied to walk to my room and just think in there. At least i'll be more comfortable. I walked up the plain wood stairs to the upper floor where most of the other creepypasta room's were. Walking to my room, I passed Ben's since when we were first brought to the mansion, Ben and I deicided to get rooms close to each others. So my room was only 2 doors away, around the corner. As I passed by, I heard soft sobs from his room and a women's voice. I couldn't make it out who it was but I sat by his room and put my ear to the door trying to listen. As I did I could make out the voice. It was Jane's. Why was she of all people talking or trying to comfort Ben?