Rayn
After our little lunch date I've been working, but having conversations with jade and she is pretty cool, I've been fucking my ex too, cause now she decides to act right, but a lot of the shit we broke up for, oh wait lemme correct that and fill y'all in..... So I and mihan met a while back at a party, I had always liked her but too shy to speak to her anyway someone told her I liked her and she came back to the party and parked outside I saw her and was like 'fuck it' so I spoke to her. While I knew everything about her she didn't know shit about me but I already had feelings. We dated for two months until one day she broke up with me, just like that. Broke my heart and all, plus been told me we were over from the week before she actually said 'we done'. I was sad, mad, confused, I was every single emotion known on the emotional wheel. Ain't nobody ever do me like that before. But we have been fucking all this time, cause I'm still emotionally attached to her, even tho she treats me like crap. She is the type to never tell you how beautiful you are, or notice a hairstyle change or say how nice you look or maybe it's just me and I'm not good enough for her. I've realized it's very toxic and my therapist said it is toxic but I just don't know how to say no to her. Jade is fine in many ways, smart and intelligent, golden heart, she notices and appreciates everything even the simple stuff. I want jade but I don't know how to let go of mihan, now mihan says I'm her woman???? 👀 what am I supposed to do now?
Anyway, I'm starting Jade's tattoo today, so I'm heading over to her house.
Jade
I saw rayn pulled up in my driveway, parked her bike and got off, she took a deep breath before coming to the door and I opened it before she can knock.
"hey were you looking out for me," she said and giggled
" I was passing the door" I simply told her. She was looking around the home that I just got. On her face, she was distressed and torn.
"are you ok?" I asked her and I know she heard the concern in my voice
"Uhm why you asked that?" she asked
"because it's printed all over your face," I told her
"oh work is just stressful at times," she said, and I could see that's a lie.
"it can get like that," I told her, I liked her and it was evident that she liked me too but she had other things going on and I could see it.
"ok so where do I set up," she asked
"come," I told her walking to the living room
2 hours after
My tattoo was done and it looked really good. I got to know rayn some more.
"you like it?" she asked
" I freaking love it yo " I told her looking at my leg in the mirror, she was standing right there and I don't know what came over me but I leaned a bit and grabbed her, pulling her body to mine, I looked into those big brown eyes of hers and then noticed how sexy and pink her small full lips were. So I leaned down and kissed her.
Mmmmm, she moaned, which set my soul on fire. Damn! We kissed for a while and she wrapped her arms around me. The kiss was unlike any other kiss, I felt passion and fireworks, my heart raced. We slowed down then pulled apart for air and she looked a little high, but soon came back in and the fire continued.
"be mine" I blurted out, it's too soon. But she stopped and looked at me and nodded coming back in for a kiss. We eventually stopped kissing and just sat down and chilled all hugged up and in a comfort zone. I really liked this girl, she got all the qualities I've been looking for in a partner, but I'll try to move slow.
Rayn
After chilling with jade, I went home to my house to find mihan sitting on my doorstep. I said yes to jade cause I felt something deeper than I've ever felt with someone.
"what you doing here," I asked her annoyed
"oh that's how you greet your girl," she said and I rolled my eyes
" I need to tell you something," I said as I opened my door.
"then speak," she said and I clam up, at that moment I didn't know what I wanted and the decision became harder. I had two girlfriends, one I got love for and not ready to let go the other I'm falling for, Lord be my guidance.
