𝐃𝐀𝐌𝐀𝐆𝐄𝐃, jaeden martell

iv. i dont get what the big deals about

━━ ↷ 🗒✴︎🔭∘ଂ🧺 DAMAGED!
[ 004. I DONT GET, WHAT THE BIG DEALS ABOUT ]
𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆: this chapter contains discussion about bipolar, depression and suicidal thoughts. if you are sensitive to those subject matters please skip this chapter. if you are struggling with any mental health, please seek help if necessary.
𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑙 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒, 𝑖𝑛𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑔𝑟𝑎𝑚

𝐓𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐒 𝐖𝐄𝐑𝐄 about to fall down stella's face. just thinking about what happened made her want to cry. her vision blurred slightly as she tried to focus on jaeden. "do you even remember what happened?" stella asked with a shaky voice. "of course i do, i just. don't get whats the big deal about it." jaeden said casually. "big deal? you? not getting it?" stella stood up and looked down at him. "you and i were friends, best friends for that and i opened up to you about my bipolar and i NEVER did that with anyone and you decided that it was a good idea to tell the whole school about it." jaeden looked down as if he was ashamed to look up at stella. "jaeden look at me." she said flatly as jaeden peered back up. "you made everyone think i was crazy. i woke up everyday and was scared to breathe, scared to blink, scared to talk and it was all because of you. i had to move to a different school because of you and you didn't even care. you laughed and laughed like everyone else did. i almost died because of you, but what did you do? you did nothing. if it wasn't for aubrey finding me by the bridge, i wouldn't be here right now. so jaeden i don't know what you want from me, i don't care anymore but don't act, like you don't know what you did."

𝐉𝐀𝐄𝐃𝐄𝐍 was dumbfounded and speechless for the first time in his life. he knew he hurt stella and when it happened, those many years ago he knew exactly what would happen. he broke her, he broke stella and there was never a time where he would have imagined her to be crying in front of him but look where we are. he had to fix this, he had to gain her trust back, but how? "do you want me to leave?" jaeden finally broke the silence between them and stood up, facing stella. stella just went to her room and shut the door. every ounce of jaeden wanted to follow her or at least sleep on her conch for the night but he knew better. so he left stella and tried to get some sleep.

࿐₊˚ .

𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐍𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓 was hard for both of them. neither of them could fall asleep after their 'talk'. stella got up and watched tv for a bit until aubrey knocked on her door. stella opened it and tried to muster up a smile but failed, her bloodshot eyes made aubrey worry as she walked inside. "you okay?" aubrey asked softly after snuggling into bed with stella. "i talked with jaeden and i don't know what to do" stella said admittedly. "i'd still tackle him if you want me to" aubrey said jokingly but knew she'd actually do it if jaeden harmed stella. stella smiled at her protective friend, "i know you would." after a while, they both finally fell asleep after the long day they just had.

+

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐍𝐄𝐗𝐓 𝐌𝐎𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆 everyone woke up later since they had such a long day yesterday. jaeden got a few hours of sleep last night but was still tired. aubrey woke up before stella and decided to make her pancakes, she called max to come over and help her. stella woke up to the drifting sent of vanilla coming from her mini kitchen which woke her up, "whats all this" she said smiling while rubbing her eyes softly as she walked out of her room. "aubs forced me to be a slave and cook for you since the only kitchen equipment she can use is a microwave and i didn't think you'd want, microwaved pancakes for breakfast" max said as aubrey softly punched her shoulder "hey" she pouted and they all laughed. they sat around the small table and read their lines to one another before getting ready to start shooting their first scenes.

+

𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐋𝐋𝐀 got her makeup done and was in her outfit for the first scene."okay so you're going to be singing to jaeden a song you wrote about him and ask him what he thinks and then you can just go from the rest of the script, got it?" the director told the two actors, they both nodded and where getting in their starting positions. "take 1...and action."

[ PLAY SONG NOW ]

"𝐖𝐇𝐄𝐍 𝐒𝐎𝐌𝐄𝐁𝐎𝐃𝐘 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐃 𝐌𝐄...everything was beautiful and three hours spent together lives within my heart." jaeden smiled softly as stella strummed her ukulele. "and when she was sad, i was there to dry her tears and when was happy so was i, when she..loved..me." stella looked up and saw jaeden smiling at her and she smiled back at him softly as she continued."through the summer and the fall, we had each other that was all, just she and i together, like it was meant to be when she..loved...me." stella put her ukulele down and looked back up at jaeden, "so...what do you think?" jaeden was once again speechless but was able to muster up some words "uhm yes, it was, it was perfect. i love it." he smiled at her..."and cUT" the director yelled. "okay thank you, you two. we'll shoot you guys a little later in the day now get some food and rest, we have a very long night tonight." the two nodded once again and parted ways.

━━━ authors note! 
last update for
tonight because
im way too tired
to write anymore
😔✋🏻 xoxo, angie!