The Slave ( Luke Brooks)

Chapter 36

I was walking in the hallway, I saw him sitting there on the chair in front of me.

He looked up at as we were both staring each other.

“Luke –“ I said

I saw him getting up as I thought he was going to come to me but instead he walked into a room where I’m guessing Miley was in for her foot.

It’s hurt as I was expecting Luke to come to me and just hug me knowing I am actually cold and I really want a hug from him, just one touch from him makes me so crazy.

As I was still standing in the hallway seeing no one in sight I existed the hospital as tears were slowly falling down my cheeks. I walked my way to Felicity’s apartment which is probably like a 20 minute walk.

Would they ever forgive me? My own boyfriend can’t even look at me, I honestly don’t even know if he loves me anymore. Why couldn’t they just trust me? I thought I meant something to all of them, but I guess I wasn’t important. I tried to explain but they just wouldn’t let me so what can I do now; they don’t even want me near them. I guess there’s no point in trying anymore.

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I unlocked Felicity’s front door as I stepped in, drenched. I placed the keys on the kitchen counter as I took my wet shoes off as I didn’t want the floor to get wet.

I walked my way to her room as I took off my clothing placing it on the chair to let it dry off in the morning. I went in the washroom as I thought of having a bath. I turned on the hot water as the tub was filled up as I took off my knickers and bra. I dipped in the tub as the hot water soothe my body.

My body was calm as my mind wasn’t all that was in my head was Luke’s face and the way everyone looked at me. I looked around finding a shiny object that caught my sight. I reached for it as I grabbed it.

I stared at it for a while observing every feature, and how I crave for something that fulfills the release I need, especially right now.

I put it against wrist, but before I cut the memory of me telling Luke and my friends that I will try to stop and how happy and how much my life changed after that day. I brushed that memory off as I looked at reality, they promised me they would help me and look where I am today, alone, helpless.

Tears were streaming down my face as I put pressure on the blade as it slide against my wrist causing the red fluid pouring out. I did it again and again, but I knew I had to stop. My dad told me I’m a strong girl and I have to keep that promise, I should’ve been died by now but I’m not. I threw the blade across the bathroom hitting it against the door as I sobbed and scream. The clear hot water was now mixed with blood as I was getting sick of seeing it.

“Why!?” I cried to myself.

I put pressure on my wrist as I caused it to stop bleeding and let the bloody water go down the drain. I grabbed an extra towel as I wrapped it around my weak body not even looking at the mirror. Felicity messaged 10 minutes ago saying, I could borrow her clothing which I did.  I wore a top with some sweat pants.

I wrapped my wet hair in the towel as I walked downstairs. My stomach was really craving for some food but I was too tired to eat. I walked downstairs and flopped on the couch shutting my eyes without a blanket or pillow.

Luke’s POV:

We were at the hospital and I was bored and tired as I just felt like sleeping and going to bed with Sky— oh wait, never mind. Skylar. She was the only thing in my mind after that. I didn’t even know what to do? Did I fall for someone I thought was someone else?

I don’t even know if we are a couple anymore, knowing all of this happening and about all the lies she must be hiding from me. A key in relationship is trust right? Then why isn’t Sky showing that, she can trust me and I trust her, but I don’t even know if I do anymore.

I heard a door open as I looked up seeing her staring at me. She was wet as her hair was in front of her face and her makeup was down her face as she was shivering crazily. I just wanted to go up to her and hug her. But I didn’t, I couldn’t. I walked up avoiding eye contact and walked straight into Miley and Beau where the doctor was putting on stitches. They told me to wait outside but I couldn’t look at Skylar, when I stare into her eyes they just make me weak as I feel as if I’m going to fall, why does she do this to me? I love her but I’m afraid I fell for the wrong Skylar?  

“Alright you are all stitched up and ready to go.” The doctor said.

“Thanks Doc.” She replied.

He left the room and Beau was talking to Miley.

“Luke.” Beau said snapping me out my thoughts.

“Yeah.” I said.

“Let’s go.” He said.

I nodded as Miley put her arm around his shoulders as she was limping her way over to the car.

“Oh shit it’s raining a lot.” She said.

Skylar has been walking in this, and probably still is now, why don’t I care?  Am I actually loosing my feelings towards her? Few days ago she was my everything, and now she is fading.

“Luke, can you stay here with Miley as I go get the car here?” Beau asked.

“Yeah sure.” I said replacing Beau’s position.

Beau sprinted towards the car as I was left with Miley.

“Sorry about Skylar.” I said.

“It’s okay, it’s just a cut I’ll get better, just happy you guys know the truth about her, god that bitch really pisses me off.” She said.

“I just can’t believe she was like that…” I mumbled to myself.

“You don’t like her still do you?” She questioned.

I looked at her as I didn’t even know the answer.

“I don’t even know now, I can’t just get over her in 24 hours, she was the innocent girl I fell for but now that I know she isn’t what I thought she was kind of scares me but some part of me is just waiting to see the old her that I thought she was, you know?” I let out.

“Yeah, you’re never going to see the old her.” She said.

Beau came with the car as he helped her in the front seat as I sat in the back this time.