STILL LOVE YOU

CHAPTER 9

JIMIN'S POV

Before i knew it my alarm clock was ringing, i was opening my eyes and it was monday. I woke up took a shower and put on a black hoodie that says love yourself in bold red letters on the side. I didn't bother to eat breakfast i stepped out my house locked it and headed 2 my car and off to work i was when i got to work and parked my car. I didn't wanna go in and meet his eyes so much i stayed in my car for about 15 minutes before actually getting out. The last 2 days have been a mixture not seeing him has it's pros and cons it was great to not have him around all the time to the point were my heart would stop everytime we made eye contact. But on the other hand i missed him terribly i was there just looking up not wanting 2 get out my car i just wanted to sink into my car seat and never see light again. But eventually i had 2 get out so i did just that i got out and closed my car door i walked and walked and walked with my head down knowing the eyes that would be crawling their way 2 mine if i looked up. I sat in my chair and of course i felt eyes on me and of course they were jungkook's "good morning minie" i turned my head to look at hoseok who was smiling at me " morning hoseok hyung" i said soft but low he smiled. "Why didn't you come on friday?" "oh i was just sick so i pretty much just stayed in bed" i looked up and locked eyes with jungkook his eye's were telling me something as if he was telling me and we also kissed remember through his eyes. I lowered my gaze and looked at the sketch i was drawing i draw a lot mostly when I'm bored I've always been a good drawer i drew a lot at work nobody did their work here only when boss expects it in his desk by morning if he doesn't then nobody actually works. Especially yoongi hyung who is always sleeping and grumpy but once you get to know him his a really kind person who cares about the people he loves i find him adorable. My drawings are always kinda dark i don't use colors at all i kinda lost my "brightness" once jungkook stepped out my life but he continued with his like nothing cause he doesn't remember me does he now. Everytime i think about that i just want to cry so i force myself to think about something else i thought about how i should go visit my mom i was kinda lost in my own thoughts. When i heard my name i looked up and saw all my co-workers huddled up in jungkook's desk and all looking at me "yeah". "Were coming 2 your house after work to celebrate yoongi's birthday" jin hyung said "what!" I said standing up and walking over 2 them jungkook's eyes following me as i made my way to them " hyung but here's the thi-" "no but's" he said shaking his head. "Yoongi hyung tell em you don't wanna go cause i know u don't" i said looking over at him " i could honestly care less" he said as he made his way back to his desk "so to your house it is then" hobi said smiling i swear 2 good if you put him next to a pic of a sunset i don't think you would be able to tell the differens. "UGH" i said as all of them made their way back to their desk leaving jungkook leaning agains his desk and me in front of him making eye contact i just wanted to slip in between his legs, wrap my arms around his neck and kiss does magical lips of his. I turned around and started walking over back to my desk i felt his eyes on me the whole time until i sat down and he sat back in his chair. We made eye contact across the room for about 5 secs before i forced myself to break it and look down at my sketch it felt like an eternity but finally the day was over i headed out and got inside my car once i was out i drove off. I was driving home very peacefully when i see other familiar cars behind me i roll my eyes knowing who it was when i got home i parked and they all parked behind me. I got out at the same time as them "you guys are really going through with this" i said annoyed "yes we are now open the door" i mentally rolled my eyes and opened my house door they all came in. "Ya jiminie your house is so pretty" hoseok hyung said looking around "yeah.....i'ma be upstairs if you guys need me help yourself's there's beer in the refrigerator "ok" they all said except for jungkook who was literally ripping my sould out of my body with his glances. I walked up stairs and threw myself on bed all of a sudden i hear loud music of course they put music on and turn it all the way up *it's so fucking loud* i stood up and took my shirt off to change i was about to take my pants off when i heard my door open faintly. "I'm changing go awa-" i stoped talking when i saw jungkook standing there he came in and closed the door behind him "jungkook i don't wanna talk to you go away" i said looking anywhere but his eyes. "I know that's not true jimin" he came close and wrapped his arms around my thin waist "you know you want me 2 so don't try to deny the way that you feel"we started at each other's eyes before we locked lips.*I had done it what I've been avoiding for such a long time i gave into jungkook wich meant i put his life at risk* our lips moved so perfectly together as my arms made their way to his neck and his tongue roamed every inch of my mouth yeah it got heated really quick. But suddenly i was pulled back like a wake up call i pulled away and backed off "what's wrong" he said "jungkook we can't be doing this" i painfully said "yes we can jimin we like each other what's holding you back there always seems that somethings holding u back". "Your life jungkook that's what's holding me back i cant handle the thought of losing you" "what are you talking about" he looked straight at me "there's some thing that are best if you don't know......well remember" "ji-" "no jungkook that's all i have to say please leave". "What so we're just gonna act like that kiss on friday or right now never happened" "yeah...that's exactly what were gonna do jungkook" i could see the hurt in his eyes thank god the music was 2 loud for them downstairs to hear us "leave" i said almost breaking right there in front of him. He turned around and walked out closing the door. I threw myself on bed again and screamed into my pillow and by the time that 10 minutes had passed my pillow was soaking wet i got up and took a shower and put on some shorts and a plain t-shirt and walked down stairs. They were all still there they were playing cards in the table except for jungkook i looked around but i couldn't see him"hey guys where's jungkook" "he said he didn't feel good so he left". Yoongi hyung said with a deep voice "oh...k" i felt a string of pain knowing I've hurt him and I've hurt myself 2 but i can't let him get hurt there's no telling on what baekhyun could do.

JUNGKOOK'S POV

By the time i got home i was sobbing and my eyes were read as tomato's i opened my door with my key and found tae's shoes i made my way to the living room and found him wearing my pajamas, eating chips and watching a movie with a face mask on. I threw myself in his arms "what's wrong kookie" he said as he strokes my hair i broke down right there and then "he....he....he...h-" "shhhhhh calm down who" he hugged me tighter "ji- jimin" i said sobbing "yeah what about him" he said but the way he said it he sounded like he knew. "He likes me b-back there's just something h-holding him back but i don't know w-what!" I said as i buried my face in his chest again and cried even harder "i knew him stepping back into your life like this would fuck you up". He said low but i still heard him "w-what do you mean b-back" i knew i wasn't much of a cry baby but when it comes 2 jimin i can't hold back "n-nothing" i don't know when but eventually we both fell asleep cuddling.