devil woman • lana del rey

2 • blue velvet

Its 2 am.

I lay on my back, my arms tucked under my head. As I listen to Lana's music. It honestly astounds me how beautiful her voice is. Her music is so beautiful and just carries me away.

I hum along to the beat.

-

I dont fall asleep for another hour. I wake up to my mother shaking me. "Rose. Rose. Your going to be late." She calls. I groan and slump out of bed.

I get dressed and walk to school. Its boring and lame and nothing interesting happens all day..until I get home.

My brothers voice booms through the house as I walk in. I smile and hurry. "Jacob!" I call. My brother turns from his coverstation and hug me. "What're you doing here?" I ask.

"Me and Lana are moving!" He says with enthusiasm. "We are moving south in two days!!" He says. I see my mother and father happy, and excited for him. But I just feel hollow. "What?" I ask.

"Yes. Lana needs to be somewhere south for a few months so," she must be on tour. It is the only logical reason. I sigh and walk up to room, slumping backward onto my bed.

Two days? No. This is impossible. I roll on my stomach and take my phone out, quickly, I check her instagram. Theres a new post, a picture of her infront of a gorgeous looking car. I stare at the caption.

Drunk on Love! Bitches only two more days!

I sigh and toss my phone. I sigh deeply. Why am I so sad? Its not even the fact im going to miss my brother, i honestly couldn't care for him. He wasn't the nicest these past nine years. So why? Maybe im just jealous that he gets to go on tour with Lana and I dont.

Stupid.

"Rose?"

I look to my door. Lana stands in my doorway. "Oh hey." "You looked upset." She says softly, closing the door. I shrug. She sits down beside me on my bed. "Are you okay?" She asks quietly, resting a hand on my back. I feel surges go through my body like electricity but it isnt. I hate my body for making me feel this way.

I stay stared at the floor. I nod. "Im fine." I say in a sigh. "I understand. Your going to miss your brother." She mumbles, staring at me. I can feel her hot stare and it makes my stomach drop.

"I-"  i begin, but i cant finish. "What?" She asks. Her hand is still on my back. The jolts distracting me. She tilts her head. "I'll leave you." She whispers, but not before tucking my hair behind my ear. Then I look up. She pulls her hand away slowly and sighs. But I can see the confidence in her eyes. I have two days left.

Everyone has celebrity crushes. Mine just happens to be sitting right beside me, staring at me. I bite my lip and look back to the floor. My stomach twisting and turning with regret and the overwhelming urge to...its sad. Her eyes flash a glossy colour and she looks away. I see her close her eyes and tense her eyebrows out of the cornor of my eye. She curses herself quietly and stands up

"Your brother is probably..wondering.." she stammers. Why is she acting so weird? Could she tell I wanted to..to kiss her? "Lana" I grab her hand and pull it back to the bed. Hopefully in a few months she forgets what im about to say "yes dear?" She asks charmingly. I chuckle. "Im upset because.." I stare at our hands, still intertwined. "I mean. Not everyone meets a fucking celebrity." I joke. She laughs. "Ha. Thats funny." She uses her other hand to move hair from her face. "Why are you upset?" She asks. "Cause, you seem really cool and...it sucks you're disappearing for a few months." I say quietly, not making eye contact. She tries to look at my face.

I look away though. I dont want her to see my red face. And embarrassed smile. "I mean, you are right." I look to her. "I am one of a kind." "You are. Your music is amazing!" I fangirl. She laughs, and her cheeks tint darker. "I stayed up so late last night listening to it! Oh my god. Your voice and your lyrics. Lana... damn your talented." "Thank you, I bet you have a beautiful voice aswell." She smiles. I laugh at her. "Yeah right." I roll my eyes.

She stares at me. Her eyes are dark and misty. She stares at my face for a long time. "What?" "Nothing" she says, tilting her head. "I just.." she trails off.

I lean closer to her. She doesn't move back. "Your very beautiful" she whispers. I blush bright red and look down. A toothy grin on my face. I bite my lip and look up to her. "Thank you. Your very beautiful aswell!" She shakes her head. A small smirk on her face. Her face is still and her eyes stare in my mine, then to my lips. Then back to my eyes.

My stomach whirls. This is it. I pull her hand to my face. Holding it there. "What're you doing?" She mumbles, staring at my hands. She seems confused but I got such a confidence boost and theres no coming down from my love high.

She doesnt move as I get closer, though. And soon I can feel her staggered breaths. "I thin-" she tried to speak, but she just stares at me. I sit rhere and think if I should regret getting this close to a grown woman. But I dont.

"Fuck" she whispers, filling the gap between our lips, she kisses me. Her lips are soft and glide across mine like silk. I pull my hands to her face and pull her closer to me. But she pulls away, "I have to go." She mumbles, quickly walking out of the room.

I feel my stomach churn and I colapse. Backwards onto my bed.

-

"I feel sick!" I groan, "ugh fine. I'll call you in. Damnit. Your going to make me late for work!"

I roll my eyes and toss over to fall asleep. My dreams just repeating the soft lips of Lana and her calming voice. God I'd love to kiss her again. Shes so beautiful I just cant. I feel so attracted to her and I dont understand why. Theres something about her. Shes a child at heart.

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"Hey rose." My brother wakes me. I roll ocer and sit up. "Heard you weren't feeling good." He mumbled, crouching to be at my view. I watch Lana stand in the doorway to my room. "Lana made you soup. I hope you feel better for tomorrow." He says, hugging me. "Thank you. I love you." I mumble. He turns to leave.

Lana steps forward. "One minute love." She says. He nods and smiles. "You girls have your girl time. Let me know when you're ready to leave" jacob says. "I will." Lana smiles. He shuts the door and Lana turns to me with a stoic face. She looks, angry?

She slumped down on the floor beside my bed and leaned against my bedside table. "Fuck Rose..." she begins. "Your brother...jacob...he just" she rolls her eyes, I stare at her with confusion. "What'd he do?" I ask. "Its not like that its more like, what he didn't do-" she shifts to face me. "He didnt..." She trailed off. "His touch didnt.." she studders, trying to find words. "It didn't make me feel like yous." I swallow my spit and just stare at her. She tilts her head up from her hands and stares at me. "Rose I- I was attracted to you the first day we met. Your just...theres something about you." She tilts her head. "Your...special" I laugh.

"Lana.." I try to speak, but its a hoarse whisper. She sighs, grabbing my hands and and squeezing them. "Your brother isn't you. Rose you wouldn't understand. His kiss doesn't make me feel like yours did. His touch didnt mame me feel the way i felt when you put my had on your cheek. He didn't send bolts of electricity through me with every touch." She rambled. I tensed my brows and just stared.

"So..you dont...regret....the kiss?" I ask. She moves one of her hands to hold my cheek. She kneels over the bedfrsme and matress to see me. "No" she sighs.

"Lana-" Jacob calls. Lana's hand shoots away from my face, but she stays crouched beside me. "Yes." She doesn't turn around to look at the door. "Mom and dad invited us to stay for dinner. Its up to you." He yelled. She looked to me and for a second, I saw hope and excitment in her eyes. However she stands up. Brushing herseld off. "You can but I have to meet with Aria and run some errands." She calls, walking out the door and leaving me with cold hands and a cold cheek where the warmth of her hand once was.

I sigh.